results released today and i'm so relief! however my gpa is kinda disappointing. ): i guess i just got to work harder the next semester. and good news is, i passed each and every module. (: bad news is, i still have physics and maths next sem!!! damn!

holidays are ending soon! part of me dont wan holidays to end, but part of me wans to start school so i have things to do again! no more slacking this time round!

met lesby on monday to get stuffs for the jolene's bday and xmas celebration. was damn tired after that. we practically walked from thru and fro and back a couple of times and my legs were aching at the end of the day. exhausted!

baby and jun then came over to my house on wed deco the xmas shirts. i must say i'm very pleased with the outcome! its so cute luh! and each and every shirts are all so unique. (: dear came and pick me up with her new car in the night and off we went to arab street.. good chill out session we had. (: and love all the catching up we had too. its been long since we met up to have a good time with each other.

xmas party over at my house yesterday was awesome! everything went well i must say. and i'm sure everyone had fun with the wii. LOL! snowflakes made a CD for me and it was damn sweet!! i nearly teared actually but luckily i didnt. or else i will be damn paiseh. thanks babe! really love the video you all put in effort to come up with.

i've gotten more and more sick today and i hope to recover soon. cough is getting real bad and flu is coming. damn! i slept for almost the whole day today. and i had an awesome dinner!! baby's parents bought pepper crab and stingray!! wahh!! yummy!! me love!! xD

baby is at camp today. leaving me all home alone. ): boohoo!!
just played wii with my 2nd bro. play till my finger cramped. =/

went to baby's officer's wedding yesterday. it was an awesome wedding! his wedding is so grand. one of the best malay wedding i've been to. and its really really nice.. their culture gives me the very warmth and homely feel. makes me feel like getting married too! i hope all these cultures will be passed down to the newer generations. (:

head home for grandma's surprise birthday celebration after that. baby seen about half of my paternal relatives and he already thought its a lot! haha! there's more to come baby! there's still the maternal side. xD

shall start on my gossip girls episodes! tata!

*ahhhh~*
baby baby!!
life's been good.
another hidden msg u know?
with him around everything is good.
i'm playing professer layton with you! LOL!
with my girls around everything is wonderful.
you on duty now and i'm missing you..
quote from kf: "life's great!"
every night is so great with you around.
been nua-ing all the way at home and even when i'm out.
thou i appear to be super sian at times. its cos of my nua mood.
no good!
and when i nua and stone, i dont smile.
i need to get the vibe back where i will b so active and energetic!
and when i dont smile my face look damn black.
where did it all go?! OH NO!!!!
so dont misunderstand that i bad mood k?
i dont wanna be a boring person!
so sorry baby! and I LOVE YOU!
damn!

holidays are here and i need $$$$!!! no job = no money. going out = spending money. no in but always out. how can!!! i need a job!! baby is gonna be my sugar daddy this month!! i dont care!! LOL!

you will always be the one for me. (:

how does falling in love feels like?

sky diving. u fear at the start. but as you fall, you notice the surroundings, enjoy the wind and the scenery. you will realize what a great experience this is. you wont get to experience an identical jump the next try. in fact you will learn to appreciate it more, and take note of more details on your next jump. as time pass, you are nearer to the ground. and when you finally touch down, i guess that's an advance chapter of love. (:

this is how i feel. how about you?

i'm near the ground. i can feel. after so many jumps that i failed to put in effort to take note of my surroundings, this jump was one of a kind. a jump that will never fail to put a smile across my face during the whole journey. my heart still pounds fast from all the excitement. and i'm anticipating for even more after i land on the ground. will i buy a land and build my own home on it? or will i take another jump and look for a new landing ground?

i guess the answer is more or less clear. i'm already anticipating landing on the ground. what else can my answer be? (:


i'm... i'm in love. and i know this time its different. this time its real. (:

exams are finally over and i'm finally FREE!! YES!!

i went almost crazy the past week! like seriously crazy! my mood was up and down, up and down. serious pms-ing going on too. but passed 11am on 2nd dec, everything was back to normal. LOL!

birthday celebration at NSRCC was great! thanks to many who came and thanks to my dearest girlfriends and my boy for planning the events and the surprises for me. a BIG THANK YOU! (: love all of you so much! (: my sweetest boy played on the guitar and sang for me. my girlfriends brought out all their courage to sing on stage for me with my boy. how can i not love them you tell me? they are the sweetest thing on earth one can ever find. and i guess i'm the lucky one on earth who found them! (: thanks snowflakes for all your efforts. practicing and planning. i seriously didnt know that was coming. thanks baby for playing the guitar and practicing so hard. i kinda guessed you will be playing already but i thought it was on the 26th nov, not 28th. but u didnt on 26th. so i didnt think much till 28th when your friends hasnt arrived at 6.30pm.

sorry to my boy for making things difficult for you. cause your lying was not convincing enough and it was a point of time when i needed you most. though i know you were planning something for me with the girls but i just needed your presence too much. (>.<)

oh well, enough said. i hope everyone who came enjoyed themselves and the event specially planned by my girlfriends. if it werent for them i guess this will be a normal chit chat, chilling party. and yes! my cake turned out to be damn AWESOME!!! i totally love it!!! ahhh!!! my royal praline (cake name)! *hearts prego (bakery name)*

holidays here and i come! and i'll definately have a hell lot of a great time!!! (:

FUCK exams! FUCK calculus! FUCK having birthdays at this period of time! FUCK!

everything just piles and piles and piles. never ending.






depression.



burnout.



fuck.


quit or not to quit? i need motivation. fuck CBC. fuck NTU. fuck singapore education systems!

was talking to my room mate the other day. before school starts, getting first class honour was our goal. however, once school starts, we only hope to pass and graduate.

just went to shower to refresh myself from all the organic chem.. gosh! how can someone remember so many machanisms and reagents that is being taught within a sem! a total of 21 chapters with dozens of machanisms n reagents to memorize from each topic! this is crazy! the worst is, after studying, doing of the past year papers makes you feel like you didnt study at all! wtf! i cant wait for exams to over and just relax and go for multiple wakeboard trainings!!

i need my baby!! *roarrs*

time for a proper post. crashed lesby's lecture last week. was studying for organic chem there. i like the classroom. cause there are proper tables to write on.. she had presentation after the lecture. and wow! one of the best marks she got!!! congrats man! yup.. anyway, my paper on friday. well.. hopefully can pull up my overall grade.. dont know the results yet. but i hope my efforts will not go to waste.

last week of lectures and tutorials. finals starts next week and i'm not prepared. ): there are so much to study. i just hope there will be enough time to restudy each and every topic. baby has been calling me so much lately. (: something to look forward each day. i'm dying on maths. goodness! first time in my entire life! my maths grades are so going down! everyone has started mugging. everywhere i go, as long as there are break in between, there will b people studying. *faints* i miss poly life. slack and you still can score damn well.. for uni life, tutorials and past year papers may not help. you really got to know how to apply, keep doing questions and even extra questions from the text. i'm so pack with exercises for myself and i'm going nuts.. boo!!

i'm happy cause my student passed her english and science..
i'm happy cause organic mid term part 3 is over..
i'm happy cause i ate 3 'longs' of xiao long bao..



but i aint happy..

failed another test. this time a 20% test paper. yeah. i got only 5%. how wonderful.. what's worst is when i did study hard for it. tmr maths paper gonna be returned to us. dat is a confirm fail too. cant do a single shit.. 3 out of 6 modules passed. wad's worst is the ones i passed, are NOT my CORE modules at all.. OH! my maths results just release. guess what? i got 4.9/20.. bravo.. i dunno how i should feel now.. but i'm speechless at myself.. did i reach the max of my brain storage? is this course not for me? i need someone now.. badly.. but.............. sigh..

life sucks! sch sucks! test sucks! failed organic chem badly.. dammit! baby is now in aussie. sigh. when is he coming back when is he coming back?! bday party almost finalized. FINALLY! gotta start mugging already.. roars!! am upset!!!

oh yeah.. baby got me a NDS.. (: something to accompany me for the time being..

havent been blogging till i fogot my blogger password. =/

been busy with school. lots of printing to do. lots of reading to do.

i'm stress! YES! STRESS! i hope i can scrap through uni.

joined wakeboarding as my cca. yea. stress with school and still take up a cca.
i've got no choice. i wanna stay in hostel the following year. so i gotta be active.
got into the main committee too. hope i can get into the team as well.
high chance i guess. i hope.
committee meeting tomorrow. excited. (:
cant wait to meet the rest of the team. cant wait to start my first training with them.
but i got to miss this sat's training due to stupid maths make up lecture. disappointed.

lesby and jun crashed lecture today. (: nice company. thanks babes! appreciated.
dear crashed my lecture before too. she came down after work.
best of all, my dearest baby crashed twice already. when will be the third time? =D
anymore lecture crashers? text me alright? haha!

so many birthday celebrations these few months. almost every week once.
last month alone, yq's, jun's and recently zj's. i'm not very excited for mine.
half hearted planning already. hate physics for once!
dont understand, and exam got to fall on the 26th nov! f**k!
in fact, i dont even know if i've got the cash to plan one. ):
any willing sponsors?
i've been trying to save. but i cant. seriously.
and given the start of my cca, i doubt i can even save now.
training at least twice a month. per training is already near to $50.
no income somemore. how to save?
worst of all, the most important person wont be present.
though i know it way before hand, but it doesnt help in making me feel better.
either way, the feeling still sucks.
and it sucks even more when its on my 21st. sigh.
i've got no choice too. no magic skills. no miracles. its work. and i cant stop him.
cause its work.

i'm off to studying. no point ranting here either. i will only get nothing done.
i can only hope for the best. and pray for the best.

so far i've drove my bro's car twice and mom's car once. almost got into an accident today. =X was exiting the round about and i stopped last minute which i almost banged onto a taxi driver. heng never luh! and luckily its in the night. uncle cannot see my face. hohoho! =X first round about and i totally forgot about the giveway line there. dammit! oh well! it was a close shave and a lesson learnt today. (: drove baby to selegie for tau huey and back to his place. first time on CTE and it was SHIOK! =D however the lack of knowledge in roads is super terrible! it made me more blur and confused. ): dammit! i got to know the roads much much better! practice makes perfect! Thanks baby for beliving in me. love ya!

went to collect room keys on sat and well, my roomie is a mongolian. i hope i can click with her. she's in a total different course from me. room looks very new and there is air con. but i think the prepaid service hasnt started operating. baby went to shop with me for my stuffs to be brought to hostel. so far so good. and i'm moving in on tuesday morning!! my 2nd home..

have you ever been in suspense before?

i'm sure everyone did. and i do not like the feeling somehow, be it good or bad. i trust my intuitions, and these intuitions just leads me on further. thus causing this sense of suspense happening. how does one overcome this feeing? ask and find out? but what if asking is not an option, and observing makes this feeling stronger as it takes time, and curiousity just take over.

i wonder.

i want a car badly now!! dammit! when you dont own a licence, you say, "too bad no licence, or not can... blah blah blah.." now when i own a licence, i only can say, "too bad i dont own a car." haiz.. oh well, baby and i are making plans to get a car. so we shall see how ba. (:

got a mini HP laptop!! yay! wanted to get a acer one today and mom was willing to sponsor. called her up and she said dad has one. so i called dad and he's willing to give it to me! hooray! and its brand new la! xD yippy!

ahhh.. i'm so tired from work. off to bed. Zzz..

wOo hoO~!

i live up the name of the chan family! xD 1 time pass! yes! i've got my driving licence already!! i'm overjoyed! thanks for all the best wishes! and seriously, thank GOD for guiding me through my test. i prayed so hard the night before, this morning, and just before my test. sang worship songs to calm myself down which did help me a little, and ta dah!!! I PASSED! this isn't the first time i prayed so hard and sang worship songs to calm myself down. the first time was during IAP presentation. i came out with good remarks and even got to present again to obtain distinction. Praise the LORD! like seriously, THANK GOD!!! (: also got to thank dear for passing me her 1 time pass luck. and augustine too! haha! =D

back from tioman with baby, and yes, we are back safely. first day was average. reached there late afternoon and we explored around. 2nd day was more fruitful. went snorkelling, enjoyed the sea breeze, rode a motorbike without a licence for only RM30/hr, and had seafood dinner. i enjoyed every minute and second spent there with baby. thanks for planning this trip B. =D and i'm definately going back there to get my diving licence! anyone up for it with me?! RM150 only i think. super cheap luh! but i think excluding gears. ahh!! i want more holidays! i dont want school to start so soon. ): will be staying in hostel too. i think i will be home sick. =/ oh yeah! i got exempted for 2 modules! woohoo~! but i guess it wont shorten my course of study till 3.5 years also. its only 2 modules. (-.-") but better than nothing! i'm glad every thing is going so smoothly for me. i like~! except for my complexion recently! damn terrible! =/

mask time!! au revoir!!

met baby and his fren jason on sat to be tourist of singapore! xD we headed down to SP first to support jason's sis for her FYP. we got $30 each helping her out too. got to do all sorts of eye test and its a relief my eyes are perfectly well. i hope my check up at TTSH next monday will turn out well too. we took the money and used it on cab fare to discovery centre and army museum. they were contemplating whether to head over to science centre or discovery. i've been to both and preferred science centre more, and they blamed me for not informing them how boring discovery is. LOL!

went seperate ways and headed for zi rui's bday. cool lounge. not bad settings. too bad i only know less than a handful of people there. however cab fare back home cost lesby and me $30 in total!! *faints* such a ulu area! argh!

sunday was sentosa with baby and jason again. xD took cable car into sentosa, watched the 4D magix pirates show, went underwater world and dolphin lagoon, took the luge ride and sky ride twice each, went into the merlion, and it was hell lots of fun with only.. $20 spent each for the whole day? yeah baby~ good deal! xD and they were still blaming me for not telling them about science centre. ): luckily jun has vouchers for science centre and snow city! we'll be heading down together soon! da vinci exhibition here i come!! xD

i'm be heading to tioman next week! i'm so excited! woot!

Wo shi xing fu xiao nu ren!

i feel so fortunate today. yes i do! =D firstly, my 'ji pun' baby bought my favourite water bottle for me! i was telling her i wanted to get a water bottle for sch and was thinking of purple or pink. i'm so touched that she remembered what i said! further more, she got me the bottle i wanted, and it has both purple and pink. LOL! when i saw it, i was just so lost for words. Thanks girl! loves!

secondly, baby made me angry by being super unreasonable with me. he got what he wanted. making me angry. in fact his goal was, the angrier i am the better. i was asked to help him to meet up with this person to collect some stuffs for him. den he kicked up a big fuss like if its inconvenient for me its ok, if i'm doing it for him so unhappily den might as well dont do it. and all these just started by me asking him one question, "who is this delivery person?" of course i felt him being so short tempered for nothing and got pissed with him. in the end, the delivery person was him. (-.-") he got me the sling bag i wanted. =D so how can i say i'm still not fortunate?

thirdly, i met my babe in search of mouse at sim lim. got a mouse and she paid part of it for me. she treated me dessert and dinner. offered to pay her back but she rejected. so how how how can i not be fortunate? my babe taking such good care of me, my 'ji pun' baby being so thoughtful, and my baby being so sweet. i'm glad i have all of them in my life. in fact, there are some more chicks that are not mentioned whom i'm really glad to have them in my life too. (:

love all of you many many. i'm sure you know who you are if your names are not mentioned.

met up with faiz, aud, jolene and yq on thurs for lunch. had pizza hut. collected my samsung pixon too! its finally working properly! xD walked around ps for a little while. went into cotton on as yq wanted to buy black pumps which she ended up not buying, and lesby wanted to buy a skirt and ended up not buying too. (-.-") while lesby was busy trying on her skirt and everything, jolene and faiz happily took a hanger, and hung up her bag onto the rag. LOL! yq left for work and the rest of us bused down to wisma. 3 of them were so sweet to accompany me to wisma to meet up with dear. thou the main purpose was faiz wanting to go to taka zara. =/ chatted with dear awhile and left to meet my baby! xD baby's mummy bought nasi lemak from serangoon. the chicken wing nice luh! but i still think the bishan one nicer.

as for today, met jun for lunch. supposed to have swensens but ended up eating at carls junior. LOL! i coped some of their tissues for baby's tissue dispenser. hahaha! and i totally made it so obvious. i cant steal or lie la! i can never slip passed it! my eyes and expressions totally gave it away! dammit! we walked around town and headed to marina sq. met dear there and settled at gloria jeans for awhile. baby came down awhile later after his staffs and we sat there waiting for abel and thinking what to write on dear's guestbook. we had crazy ideas and baby's idea are the worst! "when girls become women", "GAS book". i came up with one, "memoirs of Yvonne" eh! not bad lor. i shall put that down for mine! provided i'm celebrating. still considering. i've got no parents helping me to pay lor. unlike lesby and dear. ): maybe jun and i will carry out our plans. we shall join both of our bday celebration and celebrate in between our bday dates. LOL!

went into times book store and we got so hooked up on the zodiac and horoscrope book. only we 3 girls got so hooked up on it and agreeing and disagreeing with the books. LOL! went our seperate ways as abel is hungry, the rest of us are not, and baby is having a headache since dunno when. ): went to baby's place and lucky is so greedy! his mummy and daddy were eating durians and he was sitting by the table attentively! his daddy took the seed and let lucky lick, and lucky just snatched with him. LOL! greedy dog. what also eat la! goodness!

baby said lucky is willing to do anything just for food. he could fight with a much bigger sized dog just for food. swim in the sea just for food (he's afraid of water). goodness! the stories baby told me, and from me witnessing once lucky smelt any food, he's indeed one super greedy dog. never seen one like him before. that's what makes him so unique i guess. (: super cute.

oh yeah. organizing wakeboarding session on monday 10am-2pm at puggol country club. so far gotten 4 confirmed peeps. need 1-2 more person. anyone interested please text me. its $290 per boat. so it depends on how many confirmed parties. 5 people will be $58 each. obviously 6 people will be lesser. no worries if you dont know how to swim. there's life jacket. (: text me asap alright? thanks!

came back from malaysia on sunday night. wedding thereat kuan tan was a great experience! daryl bro and me felt like we went back to the past. haha! there was even firecrackers which ben bro had to light it. LOL! took a picture of him lighting the crackers and his expression was priceless! =P it was a really traditional wedding which is a very rare experience to come by since SG now is so modern, and these traditions are losing its originality form as generations past.

da sao's yeye is a hunter, and he managed to hunt down an eagle, wild cat and wild boar. wild boar is common, but not eagle and wild cat. the eagle meat is super tasty and the wild cat meat is super tender. damn nice luh! xD didnt eat much as i felt i shouldn't. =/

ahh.. of the whole trip i miss most is mika wong! xD haha! she uber cute lah! xD

my laptop died on me the past few days. has been telling me that the operating system cannot be found. WTF! need to send it for service soon. ): B took leave the whole of this week! =D have been spending precious time with him. woot! love each and every single time spent with him. love his lame-ness, love his nonsense, love his everything. its his each and every lame shit that made me wanna love him so much. xD a few days back he sent me a 'poem' via sms while he was returning home from work. it went..

"Just past your house, the lights brightly lit.
Lazing through the hours, wishing soon that we could meet.
As the bus drove on, the urge grew strong,
to tell you i love you."

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

melting, melt, melted.

last night was coughing badly and i couldnt sleep. my sweet B woke up in the middle of the night just to find ways to bring my coughing down and he eventually went to buy cough syrup for me. (: thanks B. appreciate it lots!


bro's wedding last week was awesome! i need to find time to load the pics up. facebook aint doing me a great favour by failing my uploads. next week going to malaysia for wedding round 2! as my da sao's grandpa is a hunter, he has stock up exotic food for us! i'm so excited! cant wait to try them. pocupine meat.. hmmm... shall share my experience when i'm back. hopefully my laptop will be nice and kind enough to work.

graduation last week was awesome too! xD took some pics but not many. fortunately there are crazy pics taken at botanic garden with my crazy lesby and jeanna! they totally made my graduation a good one. all thanks to kay min, our photographer too! we all had our fair share of perspiration contributed.

had a mini supperQ (BBQ past midnight). name given by my dearest B. had a wonderful catch up with my girls! lesby and YQ came over early to help out. not forgetting my boy too. he was busy washing the mushrooms, and doing most of the chores for us, while we were busy baking brownie which turned out fantastic! slacked in the karaoke room while waiting for the ZJ and the BIG ARRIVAL OF FAIZ, who arrived like.. 2plus? if i didnt remember wrongly. BBQed to the wee hours and one by one of us just knock out. everyone left around 8am, and i went to B's house to spend my day there sleeping. (-.-") faiz!! study hard and get into NTU!! be my junior next year k? i'm waiting! we can stay in the same hostel too! wah! that will be damn fun!! xD

deleted my previous entry as it was written at a moment of anger. wasn't thinking straight last night. however after some cooling down session and reflecting, it wasn't true at all. i am being loved constantly, being pampered, doted and given in constantly. i just didnt think of the whole big picture. i only focus on a small part and at that point of time only. and subsequently, i'm being given in once again. (: thanks B. thanks for sacrificing so much for me. thanks for setting up the fire on sat for us and taking care of me when i'm sick even though you are sick too. thanks for prioritising me first in everything you do. thanks for being so forgiving with all my nonsense and pms times. thank you B, thank u so much. i love you.

did anyone remember? its Mrs lee's death anniversary today. years just flew past so fast and easily. time wasted on being sad, being disappointed, being angry, being negative. Therefore, for my upcoming days, time will be spent wisely! filled with smiles, laughter and happiness.

I will persevere on because of you and be determined in making everything possible. with your support, i'm sure i can and i definately will. (:

invigilation today was tiring. dress code was formal. however when i reached there.. TMD!!! so many people wear jeans and polo tee!!! *angry* =X so i'm going to wear sandals and jeans tomorrow. will be super slack. i dont care! (>.<)

dinner is good and i'm enjoying each and every moment of my time.

body is no good. i'm aching all over due to wakeboarding on tuesday. i've converted from chinese to malay. =/ soon to be a 'chin-dian' in time to come. more wakeboarding sessions! =D

Edna has lost her sense of direction.

She's on the verge of giving up everything. Yet she's unable to.
Troubled troubled troubled.



































FUCK!

From this day on, I've decided to stay in hall for my full 4 years. Firm decision on it and I will strive to get a hall throughout my uni days. Its all these little things, made it into a big thing to you all, that's why I end up like THIS, and become like THIS. no more depending on you anymore in future. oh no! wait a minute, I've never depended on you at all in fact, from the start! It was all her efforts. You did nothing.. you didn't contribute at all.. OH! there I go again. I'm sorry, I guess you did contributed in a way. You contributed sarcasm. That's how I learnt my sarcasm from too. You contributed saddness and depression to people. You contributed anger and violance. And I'm never or have NEVER been proud of you.

I envy others. ALOT in fact. Like why am I here yadah yadah yadah. Why do they have this and that but in my story or our story, it just didnt happened. Every little word you said to me before, even YEARS back, I've remembered clearly. Cause it hurts. and I can strongly say, I dont think I've hurt u AT ALL! You know why? Cause you are a self centered person who only knows how to hurt the rest around you without you knowing it. I cared. I tried to know you all better. I tried my best. But have you? She knows how to show a little appreciation to me when I put in effort to get to know her better. But as for you? NOTHING! However, THANKS to you, I realized that I've the determination to work towards what I want. I've learnt to be strong. No worries, I will still repay you in future. With kindness, with patience, and with love. because I'm not self centered and I chose to respect right from the start of this journey, and I will continue with this decision.

my bro just told me that if i wear cat ears, i will look like this cat. LOL! WTF LA!!

him: ur display pic. if u wear cat ears will be similar like my cat pic
me: wth
him: u see carefully lor. abit similar. LOL
me: wth!!! omg la!
him: i see the smile then i like wtf..same sia..
summore head also same angle
me: ur sis looks like a cat
an animated cat some more

I DIG VACUUM FREEZE-DRIED MANGOSTEEN!!!
jun, u should have just bought one carton for me la!! =X

went for driving today. and as i have hoped for, YES! Stage 2 completed! =D now have to wait a few more weeks later to continue my practical. (: went over to jun's place for squash session. gosh! i'm seriously bad at ball games. =/ with much practice, i'm sure i'll improve! =D wahh!! i'm munching away the mangosteen while blogging. sinful luh!! but damn shiok! and oh yes! went juicy couture yesterday. saw a necklace and my god!! love at first sight la!! so i did something sinful again!! i bought it. damn! but no post syndrome. and i'm very satisfied with my loot! xD

isnt she a beauty?? =D

everything is going so well for me now. (: my offical letter has finally arrived! 100% relaxed and heavy load gone. lesby, yq and my secret mission is going off very well at the moment. my driving is currently on stage 2. plan to complete by next week which i believe its possible. and just a few more lesson and my stage 3 and 4 will be clear and here comes my green card soon. and my relationship? well, never been better. (: so many things cleared and settled. i'm happy! yes yes!! in fact, SUPER HAPPY!! depite my lonely days these days.

anyway, i'm planning to get bike license after my driving. any objections? LOL! but i will get it slowly step by step with my own money as my parents will DEFINATELY wont approve me of bike. =/ all thanks to my dearest dad and ben bro's history. (-.-")

driving lesson today was great. started driving on the real road and drove passed my house twice. =D instructors today were nice too. learnt a lot from them. better than the 2nd instructor i got on monday where i practically learnt NOTHING from him. he just kept quiet and watch me drive and when i drove a little out of the lane he just tell me i'm too left or right. and yes! he LOVES to JAM BRAKE for me!! only under him my engine stalls a million times!! with other instructors my engine didnt stall more den 5 times k! stupid instuctor. so full of himself. i hope i'll NEVER EVER get him again. waste of my money!

oh well.. another thing to be happy about for those who knows, YES! i'm waiting for the arrival of my OFFICAL LETTER!! 90% of the heavy load in me has been put down yesterday. just the letter and i'll be 100% relax. =D

GREEN CARD!! U WILL OFFICALLY BE MINE BY JUNE/JULY!! heh heh~!

lesby's birthday party was a BLAST! thank lord everything went smoothly and successfully. though there were some disagreements at one point of time, and some mishaps, but everything was handled well and VIOLA! my lesby's 21st birthday was a SUCCESS!! (: congrats lesby in turning 21. may ur future road ahead be a smooth one and go according to what you have planned. love you much much.

so at the start of the chalet, we checked in. first thing done was washing the sticky floor. lesby's mom was sitting outside 'supervising' us and snapping photos of us at work. LOL! some really unglam ones. =/ cleaning up the chalet brought back memories of spring cleaning in st margs. where we literally have fun playing with water. so we start working on the banner and did some shopping. the banner came out really well and all thanks to the 3 great minds and hardwork. =D

clock strikes 12 and lesby first minute of 21 was being blindfolded and brought out the the shower at the pool. and yes, i misled her and she fell into the drain. =X i'm so sorry!! i didnt know a drain exist at that part of the pavement! and not the guys distract me k~ *ahem* they are a bunch of kids. only ZJ favourite. =X so we started throwing wipe cream, flour and spray ribbons on her. showering her with all our blessings. gave her her present and she presented each of us a thank you card. really sweet of her. (: we turned in early that night in preparation for the long hours the next day.

throughout her party, yq and i were busy taking polorids for her and getting people to fill up the guest book. zj was busy taking photos everywhere with the DSLR. and lesby were busy entertaining all her guest. her cake was awesome! its more for the sweet tooth. however it still do taste good. the chef had to re-bake as he was unsatisfied and brought it down for her personally. what a great chef la! i think i want my cake to be 2-tier or 3-tier. =D that night when the clock strikes 12, it was a switch over. sook fung's bday next and she was drunk within 10 minutes? LOL! she damn funny after that la. oh well, i hope the 2 bday girls enjoyed their day. (:

so i started my driving lesson yesterday. and learnt all the way to 2nd gear shifting. =D next lesson is tomorrow and i'm looking forward to who is my instructor. i hope i get a nice instructor. (:

i'm back from krabi.. a long time ago. yes~! it was a definately enjoyable trip. all the different activities i've never tried before. except for snokelling. other than that, the rest was a good first experience. so departed on the 14th march. (suddenly i feel like copy paste the whole of mr goh's blog entry) reached phuket in the night so not much activities but took the coach to krabi. krabi's 4 star hotel was damn good! nice ambience, good service! however, breakfast was okay~ and lots of mosquitos! practically the whole of thailand was filled with these irritating pest.

the next day, our first stop was ATV. at the start, i crashed into the bushes and other pavement once each. after getting more familiar with the whole 'machine', everything was fine until.. down slope. kabir was in front of me and i was going down fast without accelerating, and with brakes which did not work as what it is meant for, i turned to the side in order to avoid crashing into him, and my ATV when up the side, flipped, and i flew out den glided a little. so poor me, half filled with mud, blood oozing out from both legs and bruises forming slowly. when the whole ride was finished, i washed my wound and they applied iodine for me. but damn useless la! cause the next activity is river rafting!! apply also next minute going to be washed away. (-.-") so we went river rafting without a pedal for some of us, as there were way too many people!! so i practically sat on the raft and enjoy my 'tai tai' adventure. other rafts splashed water on us and my stupid instructor at the back of me threw a long brown wet dead leaf on me and went, "argh!!" main objective: to scare me. however, dar and me just looked down and stare with no expression. LOL! there are just so many hilarious stuffs that happened during rafting. too bad everything are not captured down on cam. ): next was hot spring and goodness! damn shiok can!! i love it man~! =D

third day was boarding the speed boat and off we went for island hopping and snokelling. chasing swamps of silver fishes as well. the whole group of us even surrounded the fishes. (-.-") thats how child-like we became during the trip. =D the way to enjoy the whole trip to the fullest! reached phi phi for dinner than took a cruise back to phuket. during the journey, most of us fell asleep despite our wet clothings still on and the air-con blowing at us. reached our hotel, had our bath, and off for dinner and SHOPPING! =D oh! looking at transexual too! those pubs there, wah! damn slutish looking girls and ladyboys! wanted to take pics with the ladyboys as some were dressed in costumes. however, we need to tip them. so, i dropped the idea. haha! after the tiring shopping, everyone gathered at our room (dar, mel and me), for finishing up of baileys and soft drinks. the previous night was the same too!

last day in thailand and time seriously pass damn fast! went parasailing for mel, chai hui and me, and go cart for the guys. next, the trip was cashew nut factory followed by massage or shopping. obviously for me will be shopping as i've not shopped enough!!! got lots of tees and bought some mangos back for grandma, and on the flight back to singapore, i realized she was in china. (-.-") luckily i bought some not ripe mangos, and luckily they are able to last till she came back. =D

第一句　
如果我们之间有1000步的距离，你只要跨出第1步，我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步。

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，才是真正爱你的人。

第三句
付出真心，才会得到真心，却也可能伤得彻底。保持距离，就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞。

第四句
有时候，不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重。

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人。

第六句
就算是believe，中间也藏了一个lie。

第七句
真正的好朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题。而是在一起，就算不说话，也不会感到尴尬。

第八句
没有一百分的另一半，只有五十分的两个人。

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的，是敌人。为你的快乐而快乐的，是朋友。为你的难过而难过的，就是那些　该放进心里的人。

第十句
冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的工具。

These sentences, are definately not typed by me. its CHINESE! since when did my chinese inproved till this standard. LOL! received this through email and found it meaningful. i personally like no. 2, 3, 4, 6, and 7. =D

this week is such boring week! no work no nothing. free everyday except for this coming sat whereby i'll be going rebel. but i kind of dont feel like going. somehow sian of clubbing. however we're celebrating ian, arab and fu lin's birthday. =/ baked cookies on monday night. parents wasnt home and i wasnt out. amazingly i didnt havoc at all la! so yeah~ decided to bake to kill time. baking is fun. and i shall try more and more weird stuffs. haha! and whoever i meet that day or the next or somewhere around the next few days shall all be my guinea pigs! heh heh~! especially klein! =X who is currently my ntuc shopping partner for my baking groceries.

batam trip was great! though i was unable to make it for the go kart. but the company was too good i didnt regret making the trip down. (: went to batam by myself and was so afraid i will get lost or get cheated by some taxi driver! luckily mr goh hired a cab for me to wait at my ferry terminal. the driver was driving so slow when it comes to humps or uneven roads. i think he went about 10km/h? or even less. it seems like it took me ages to reach my destination.



sat on the banana boat with mr goh and some of the program 5 peeps. the ride was really slow but the people on the ride with me made it more enjoyable. did not do any shopping. so i bought nothing at all!!! (T.T) sobz. went for aroma therapy. the massaging session was great yet painful and ticklish. suan, aug and xiaojon was making hell lot of noise la! especially dirty jokes. goodness! rush back to batam center to catch our ferry back to SG. and i definately enjoyed my trip back more than my trip there. LOL!




OMG!!! LESBY IS AT NOVENA WAITING FOR ME NOW AND I'M BLOGGING AT HOME!!

i've gotten my long wanted phone! =D samsung pixon! yes! and i'm loving it to the max now. my first phone bought with my own hard earn cash! cost me $500 but not a single heartbreak feeling when i look into my bank as i'm very satisfied with my loot. i'm excited for tues! batam yes! here i come! go karting! i hope i will be able to make it there before they change activity!!

everything has been cleared and resolved. Thank God for it! haha! i am once again standing strong again. =D working for cylon once again and i'm going to chiong for my driving too! aiming to get it by june. or rather before my FTT expires. met dear this afternoonand hugged her to sleep. LOL! even marcus see liao bth. =X went to marcus' dad's place to celebrate his birthday. wa lao~! his father keep filling my bowl with food!! then dear sat so far from his dad, so my bowl kana refilled SO many times! =/ i eat till i wanna vomit la! after dinner still got dessert. worst still, got cake after dessert! *faints* ahh!! need to work later. got to go sleep le. nights everyone!

au revoir!

NO one if perfect. and i really mean NO ONE! we are God's creation and he made us this way for his own reasons. if i am to be friends with hypocrites, i rather be friends with beggers. because hypocrites are of no better den beggers where they beg for the acknowledgement of their existence. true friends are the one who tells you your flaws straight and tell you what and how they feel. they do not make use of you and they do not speak ill behind your back (even if they do, they confront themselves after that). "Do not judge a book by its cover" this phrase is SO true! and i never will now and in future. Friends who can be kept will be kept always, friends who are unreliable, will be thrown far away.

I thank those friends who have been true to me all along and have always been:
Lesby
ZJ
YQ
Faiz
Dua neh
Jun
Twin
Dear
Girlfriend

wahhhhh!!! *clears cob webs*

attachment finally over! hurray! presentation on tues and i'll be considered graduated unofficially! woohoo~! valentine's day yesterday was.. boring the whole afternoon, fun during the night, and not bad pass midnight. over all rating.. 2.5/5 stars. LOL! but food was good~! their mom really cook damn well. *loves* there were some picture taking here and there, and trying of cigars too!! but i didnt try la! so huge and smelly. feels like i can die immediately just after one puff. =/

i'm starting to miss my colleagues. ): our last day just seemed to end so fast. not enough time to do so many things. we were just too occupied with things to clear and pack.

true friendship will never be drifted no matter how awful it seems for a period of time. i'm glad this was a true one and a precious one too. doubts and misunderstandings all cleared. heart have been lifted high up again,

thank Lord for making everything possible for this friendship and for bringing the funfilled family into my life. Amen.

i'm very much recovered le. but sore throat and cough still remains. ): cough did get better, but my throat is getting worst. somehow its swelling. hurts badly. sigh. but my 'snake' thing is healing. (: just hope there wont be any scars.

last night was cousin jason's wedding. the food was good! it was held at vivocity imperial herbal restaurant. not much privacy as the restaurant was still open to public. thus there are waitress/waiters walking in and out with food. fortunately, the food was damn good! =D love the cousin bonding and there's more to come this CNY! =D looking forward to lots of camwhoring!

the 8 brothers
note: the ones who are high on alcohol are the ones who sticked their tongues out. LOL! some of the present cousins. not all are here. these are just 3/4 of my father side cousins. (the drunken uncles told us to give this pose)

yes, i've gotten 10 days of MC. mainly due to the 'snake' virus i got. some minor version of chicken pox. not very minor also la. heard from grandma that if he grows one circle around the stomach, neck or head, its DEATH! scary la~ =/ heng mine is only on my arm. fortunately there's no more new growth. hoping the current 3 patches i have on my arm will heal fast. i cant go out la. how sad. ): stay home and rot everyday. cant do new year shopping too. oh! i think i'll definately slim down man~ i'm not allowed to eat any meat and egg related food. so i'm basically going vegtarian now. porridge everyday. it quite sian when you face plain porridge 3 meals a day.

celebrated kelvin chua's bday. talked about the days in st margs. miss those days badly. the way he stressed us about our a maths and all the stupid things that happened. haha! one thing i'll never forget about is the way he would go all out to help his students. (: i'm glad i'm once his student. Praise the Lord! more years of fellowship to come! =D

sometimes, i do miss devotion in school. those countless teachings which made me a more positive person today. i miss st margs! i really do. met jun recently too, and we were talking about GB, going to st johns' chapel during reccess to slack, and everything we did before. even CCA then was so much more enjoyable as compared to poly.

anyway, i'm falling real sick. hoping to recover before CNY. cough, flu, sore throat, nauseous, and even lots of little red water bubbles popping out of my left arm!!! goodness! i'm reducing my nightlife back to normal. less clubbing. definately! less drinking too.