folding paper canes in sch today... haha.. suddenly so into paper canes.. hmm... during PE played captain's ball.. i'm not good at ball games... haha... coz i'm kinda scared of balls.. =\ during morning devotion mrs khoo teared.. coz the speaker talked abt mrs lee... den mrs low didnt teach during maths lesson... ms kang ask us to write a reflection abt mrs lee or a letter to mrs lee in heaven.. y of all topic abt mrs lee?? i mean.. y she wanna rack up e past memories?? but i really do miss her... after she left i realized how much she meant to me actually.. sigh...

went home today n packed the chocos karto gave mi ytd... haha.. he's always giving mi chocos.. i'm growing fat le~ if i ever enter turf club~ KARTO!! u r responsible k~ haha... audrey den msg mi n ask mi to call her coz some irritating guy we know of called her.. haha... i cant stand him.. thinks he's super handsome n nice... rmb once he woo me... n when i rejected him.. he said "y?? i so handsome... n so nice... y dont wanna accept me? u wan wad i will buy for u de.. y dont accept me??" eek! gives mi goosebump... no wonder he's so easily cheated by girls... haha... he told mi a ger went stead wif him... den he bought alot of stuffs for her n cost more den $200... den after he bought wad she wanted.. she broke up wif him... haha.. n he still dare to tell mi~ wad a guy~

stayed home the whole day ytd.. my relatives came to my house to visit my ah ma... den my little cousin dolphine will go to my room n play wif fatu... i didnt look after her.. coz i was busy setting up my com... den in e nite when i went to my room... wOo! it was in a mess man... newspaper in e hamster cage, scissors beside e cage.. den i begin to wonder if she took e scissors n cut e hamster's fur? hmm... went to bath next.. n when i came back to my room i saw a piece of choco on my table... den again.. i started wondering if i were blind juz now or was it my cousin who placed it there n didnt eat it... found out it was my elder bro who placed it there for me.. there was wine inside e chocos!! YUMMY!!! hehe...

didnt go sch today... no lessons... mrs lee is gonna b cremate today... sigh... i'm gonna miss her so much... took out e past few days newspaper article n read on mrs lee's news... my uncles n aunts came to my house this morning too.. den they were lyk asking mi how come i didnt go sch today... den they realized i'm from st marg's... (-.-") n they started asking mi questions...

went to mrs lee's wake at choa chu kang today... sigh... i felt lyk crying.. but no tears was flowing out of my eyes... it was flowing inside my heart instead... my tears r all dried up... i've been crying for a week continously... i'm not used to it without 2 pple in my life... it's so tough... i couldnt get used to life without one person yet.. n another one left our world... time juz passes by so fast... for a moment they were in front of u... n e next moment... they r gone... n nv back... most of us cried... n i oso realized dat those girls whom she scolded e most cried e most too... she looked so different in there... juz lying down inside not breathing... her face covered wif a thick foundation... her body will be cremate on monday... it's gonna b so much of pain seeing her being burn with ur own eyes... too bad students can go inside e cremation room... all of us r gonna miss her so much... y izzit so dat everyone will start realizing dat someone is important once dat person left ur side??




samantha n me~



taken at my ah ma's funeral dat day~ my cousin n me~

everyone seems to b leaving mi slowly... anti- christ is coming?? sigh.. i hope not... last month wad full of broken relationships... n tiz month?? full of funerals everywhere?? WHY?? "dear god, wad r u teaching mi tiz time??" r u trying to teach mi to b strong?? mrs lee always say "think of wad r e good things dat happen to u today instead of the bad things" n now.. she had left us juz lyk tiz... everything is so unpredictable... u will nv know wad will happen tmr.. n when tmr somes, u will nv know wad's gonna happen the day after dat.. she put in so much of effort in improving our sch.. n her her efforts all gone to waste juz lyk tiz... she even had a promotion recently... n her pay was increased to $143 000!!! haiz... when mrs low told us e news... almost e whole class cried... ecxept for tamil tigers... we made a get well soon card for her... but it was too late.. she went to heaven... e express classes even made paper canes... sigh... exams r postponed to term 3... no more mid year... is dat good or bad?? sigh...

went to sch today... had rash early in e morning... sian.. all the way until now... left sch early to see doc... den mom say muz b bcoz of my hamster... now i dunno wad to do wif my hamster le.. sobz... my principle fainted in sch today.. den was sent to NUH!!! hahaha... =X oops! didnt had a good nite slp last nite.. still missing my grandma.. feels so weird without her pressence when my other grandma is wif me... sigh... reach home after seeing doc went to slp immediately... woke up by my aunts.. coz they came to visit my grandma.. hehe... gtg go study for a maths test tmr le.. ciaoz...

today was the last day of e funeral... stayed at my grandma's hse last nite... den from today onwards my other grandma gonna stay wif me... =D well... on mon chris came down again n acceompanied me... i was a waitress at the funeral too!!! was serving e guest all the way...

on tues was so tired... didnt wanna go sch... but i went in the end... after flag raising.. mrs low will ask mi to go home... -.-" n major tot i was late at first... went home n slp.. den went down to my ah ma's hse at 11.30... audrey n e rest called me out of concern... thanks peeps... love ya lots... as ytd was e 2nd last day... we had a ceremony from evening onwards... n they said my grandma tot she was dreaming.. until she saw her own body... later in the nite... my family had a big quarrel out of a small thing... sigh... they quarrel still nvm lor... but in front of my 2 ah ma!!! my other grandma was so pissed n heart broken... she went back home n rest... den i accompanied her...

den today... was suppose to march off... n it was raining very heavily when we wanted to march off... n it was said dat my grandma refuse to go... coz of last nite quarrel i guess... den my aunts n uncles was chanting the buddha thing to let her leave in peace... n the rain slowly lighten down... i really hope i m able to dream of her... i miss her... sigh...




my cousin dolphine... n my nephew reandon... hehe... cute little kids...



my cousin... haha... forced him to take de... =X



n his bro~

juz came back from e funeral.. i miss her... chris came to accompany me ytd too... i kept wanting to take a look at her... she look so diff wif those make ups on... my other grandma kept thinking of her... tiz morning once she woke up... she said "time flies so fast... she's gone..." after hearing dat i cried silently... scences of the past memories flashes across my mind... after taking breakfast.. i took a walk outside... eveywhere i went.. there was a little memory of her... i teared as i strolled along the pavement... did want to come back home today... wanted to accompany my other grandma... but i'm having eng exam tmr... no choice... if my eng paper 1 tmr had the topic "my idol person" dat would b my grandma... i found out she was very thrifty... n she would rather spend her money paying my phone bills n giving mi money instead of spending on herself... sigh...




taken tiz morning...



was bored... so tried to act dao~



my little cousin jeanna... 2 yrs old only... cute??

she left me. she went to the other world. it was unexpected. nobody expected this to happen. she was so healthy, but at least she left peacefully. i just realized how much i love her. now i know she meant so much to me. my other grandma was so sad. she cried lyk mad. i cried lyk mad too. wont be going to sch on wednesday. mom told me to go on monday and tuesday. i dont feel like going at all. i wanna accompany my grandma. gonna stay with her tonight. sigh. gotta go back to my grandma house le. *i love u grandma*

-sigh- didnt had time to blog yesterdat. i'm gonna fail a maths test. it was an open book test. and there are answers written on the board too! the only thing was for us to work it out. i only got 7 correct out of 18!!! OMG! *faints* so tired these days. didnt have a good rest. went for dental after sch yesterday and met karto. cause he owed me chocolates!! hehe. thanks for the chocolates karto! *yum yum* mom cooked western food for dinner. so yummy. *gRiNz* had a nightmare last night too. i dreamt i was in school until late at night. than i was going home with one little boy who is scared of ghost but yet like to tease people about it. den on the way to the bus stop, a car with no one driving appeared. i tried to remain calm. than held his hand and walk with him. later we walk pass this house and the gate opened by itself. i started to run. the more i ran, more ghost appeared! haha. i woke up with my heart pounding so fast. lolXx.

woke up this morning and was lying on my bed thinking of the show 'true courage'. the espisode last night was so... haiz. dont know how to discribe. was planning to go out with aud in the afternoon too. until awhile later, my mom ran up to my elder bro's room and started knocking very hard. heard the whole conversation. and it made me jumped out of my bed fully awake. something happened to my grandma. therefore i had to cancel the meeting with aud. was so worried. i wonder how is my grandma now. cried when i was thinking about it. she's my beloved grandma. i hope there will be news of her soon. *waiting and waiting*