Thursday, May 07, 2009

did anyone remember? its Mrs lee's death anniversary today. years just flew past so fast and easily. time wasted on being sad, being disappointed, being angry, being negative. Therefore, for my upcoming days, time will be spent wisely! filled with smiles, laughter and happiness.

I will persevere on because of you and be determined in making everything possible. with your support, i'm sure i can and i definately will. (:

invigilation today was tiring. dress code was formal. however when i reached there.. TMD!!! so many people wear jeans and polo tee!!! *angry* =X so i'm going to wear sandals and jeans tomorrow. will be super slack. i dont care! (>.<)

dinner is good and i'm enjoying each and every moment of my time.

body is no good. i'm aching all over due to wakeboarding on tuesday. i've converted from chinese to malay. =/ soon to be a 'chin-dian' in time to come. more wakeboarding sessions! =D

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Edna has lost her sense of direction.

She's on the verge of giving up everything. Yet she's unable to.
Troubled troubled troubled.



































FUCK!

Saturday, May 02, 2009

From this day on, I've decided to stay in hall for my full 4 years. Firm decision on it and I will strive to get a hall throughout my uni days. Its all these little things, made it into a big thing to you all, that's why I end up like THIS, and become like THIS. no more depending on you anymore in future. oh no! wait a minute, I've never depended on you at all in fact, from the start! It was all her efforts. You did nothing.. you didn't contribute at all.. OH! there I go again. I'm sorry, I guess you did contributed in a way. You contributed sarcasm. That's how I learnt my sarcasm from too. You contributed saddness and depression to people. You contributed anger and violance. And I'm never or have NEVER been proud of you.

I envy others. ALOT in fact. Like why am I here yadah yadah yadah. Why do they have this and that but in my story or our story, it just didnt happened. Every little word you said to me before, even YEARS back, I've remembered clearly. Cause it hurts. and I can strongly say, I dont think I've hurt u AT ALL! You know why? Cause you are a self centered person who only knows how to hurt the rest around you without you knowing it. I cared. I tried to know you all better. I tried my best. But have you? She knows how to show a little appreciation to me when I put in effort to get to know her better. But as for you? NOTHING! However, THANKS to you, I realized that I've the determination to work towards what I want. I've learnt to be strong. No worries, I will still repay you in future. With kindness, with patience, and with love. because I'm not self centered and I chose to respect right from the start of this journey, and I will continue with this decision.