its so hurting when you know about it and yet you can do anything to help solve the problem. am so pissed at him. he makes me all the more fearful of marriage. he makes me all the more weary about getting married. however, one will never know the true colours of a person until marriage. whether the other party will treat you well, if he/she is violent, or he/she is just the way they are once you knew them. but how are we gonna find out till we past the signing of papers and ceremony.

its because of him and some others, made me more cautious about my other half. its because of them, i will go all out just to dig out the truth of my other half and to check if he is lying to me. and when i find out, i'm usually not calm about it, and i became super sensitive when someone just deosnt keep to their words. i guess i will never give my full trust to my other half. i think it'll b very hard for me especially if the person was flirtatious before. sigh. why am i growing up? the more you grow, the more worries and problems you have. and it sucks.