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2011-04-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

its easter. am happy that Jesus died for us on the cross. no one can ever go through the pain he went. just the thought of what he went through its painful enough. went for service on friday and wow. it was such an emotional one. when the gospel was read, i could just tear immediately but obviously i was trying to control as much as possible. )": especially when the chorus of a song was sang, i could no longer control.

"i forgive you, i love you.

you are mine, hold my hand.

go in peace, sin no more.

my beloved one"

wah wah wah!! till now. this verse is stuck in my head. another thing am kinda upset about is my baptism. am supposed to get baptised on this day. however, due to my busy schedule which made me missed lots of classes, i gave this opportunity up as i wasnt ready. am planning to attend the next batch. but what if my schedule becomes pack again? sigh. i hope not. saw the baptism pictures. i cant help but felt pretty sad about it. why aint i the one up there? i know i'm the one who decided not to go through baptism this year. however, i cant help feeling upset about it when everyone were so excited about their baptism but not me. ): sigh.

exams are around the corner and i'm starting to binge on food.

NO GOOD!!!

2010-12-11T14:12:00.002+08:00

everything is so sudden. even i myself find it hard to accept. i really dont know how is she herself and her family gonna accept it. life is so fragile. anything can happen anytime without you even knowing. we always say that we have to treasure everyone around you now since you're able too. but how many times do we actually act it out. really thank GOD for her strong personality. she's stronger than i thought. stronger than me. i wont be able to go through as much as her. jia you girl! you have all of us praying and being there for you. i love you~!

2010-11-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

its so hurting when you know about it and yet you can do anything to help solve the problem. am so pissed at him. he makes me all the more fearful of marriage. he makes me all the more weary about getting married. however, one will never know the true colours of a person until marriage. whether the other party will treat you well, if he/she is violent, or he/she is just the way they are once you knew them. but how are we gonna find out till we past the signing of papers and ceremony.

its because of him and some others, made me more cautious about my other half. its because of them, i will go all out just to dig out the truth of my other half and to check if he is lying to me. and when i find out, i'm usually not calm about it, and i became super sensitive when someone just deosnt keep to their words. i guess i will never give my full trust to my other half. i think it'll b very hard for me especially if the person was flirtatious before. sigh. why am i growing up? the more you grow, the more worries and problems you have. and it sucks.

2010-09-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

i teared upon reading judy's post on her feelings for the upcoming operation. www.tinybabydreams.wordpress.com
the operation is on the 9th oct. i cant do anything to help cause i'm not B+ blood type, and i've no cash to help at all. in fact they have been paying me money for ashley's tuition. =/ being a mother is so.. "WOW!" it really breaks my heart knowing such disease chose this poor little child, and wanting to take this life of hers away. i pray that the operation will be successful. be strong avril!

2010-09-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

3rd week of school has ended and i've been so caught up with school work. hope i see good results this sem. A! A! A! here i come!! lab has started this week and i'm already so demoralized. did recrystallization twice and i failed twice. sigh. my product went hay wire and there goes my results. gotta smoke my lab report with the help from fuq. my product yield is not even 50%!!!! lesson learnt, never listen to 2 TAs(seniors that help us out in labs). always stick to 1 and you wont go wrong.

i'm so dead tired everyday. i cant seem to find time for myself now. everyday is sch, work, sch, work. exhausted.

2010-08-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

first day of school and boy do i miss my group of friends! had add/drop today and it was a comical scene for me i guess. i was practically carrying my laptop on my hands everywhere i go once the add/drop period starts. jialin and i were on the phone trying to coordinate the timing for her to drop the module and for me to accept it.

jialin: 1, 2, 3, hurry click hurry click!

me: *click*

jialin: ahh!! wait!

me: what?! i click already! dont scare me! what happened?!

jialin: i havent confirm!

me: -.-" wa lao!!!!

and then the same procedure. we were both super kanjiong. cause once i missed it, there wont b any more vacancies for me to take that module until some one drops it. so i was raising my voice, being all so nervous and restless while cross the road, at the bus stop, and on the bus. yes! in public! it was a busy day for me as i've got 2 tuitions straight after school. so i wasnt able to stay in school to click with the girls. ): oh well, at least i'm not lack of any electives. thank god! (:

2010-08-24T17:59:00.002+08:00

You must be happy now to bring happiness into your life through the law of attraction. It's a simple formula. Happiness attracts happiness. Yet people use so many excuses as to why they can't be happy. They use excuses of debt, excuses of health, excuses of relationships, and excuses of all sorts of things as to why they can't use this simple formula. But the formula is the law.

No matter what the excuse, unless you begin to feel happy despite it, you cannot attract happiness. The law of attraction is saying to you, "Be happy now, and as long as you keep doing that, I will give you unlimited happiness.

Adapted from secret once again..

havent been updating cause my life is rather more or less stagnant. i'm practically doing more or less the same thing nowadays. including mahjiong and prawning. am considering if i should be in the committee this upcoming year. i love the sport. but somehow, there is someone who is keeping me from continuing. it feels awkward nowadays. i tried putting in effort to get it going but somehow it isnt. i dont know if its a miscommunication or something. i guess the only solution to it is to pray about it. (:

school is starting next week! gonna get real busy with school and tuition. and probably lesser late nights for me. (:

2010-07-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

i'm disappointed at someone. but nonetheless, everything else is great! (:

all thanks to baby my holidays so far are well spent! YAY-ness! bangkok trip was awesome! we explored around ourselves and i really liked the feeling. in a foreign land, not knowing their language, explore the city, taking their public transport. WOW! i love it! especially when its with baby.

the following week was bintan with lesby, jun and khornee. a short trip, nothing much to do, but the company was great! love their company. (: its amazing how a trip with not much activity is able to be so enjoyable. cherry and apple are memories. =D (inside joke) straight after bintan was genting with baby again. no rest day at all. luckily for us the bus ride was first class, with movies and massage chair + baby = ultimate! went casino! hohoho! i'm so happy everytime the policeman asked to view my identity card. this means i look young! =D

missed church for a week and i miss the feeling of going church. i know its so unlike me compared to the past. even i myself am surprised at myself. and well, its a good surprise.

2010-06-23T01:06:00.002+08:00

bang! fired! (:

i'm happy. cause i have my baby. i'm happy cause zephyr does wonders to my heart. i'm happy cause i made my first phonathon today but no success yet. i'm happy cause i met lesby today. i'm happy cause i tried wendy's today. i'm happy cause i know how genuine my relationship with my gfs, my bf, and my family has. (:

Adapted from secrets

Every night before you fall asleep, replay in your mind the good moments of the day, and give heartfelt thanks for each one of them. Think about the next day also, and intend that it is going to be amazing, that it is going to be filled with love and joy, and that all good is coming to you. Intend that it is going to be the best day of your life. Then when you wake in the morning, BEFORE you get out of bed, declare your intentions again for the day and give deep thanks as though you have received them all.

2010-06-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

i just got back from church camp. and it was an amazing experience. i got myself a new group of girls and wow are they amazing! (: we were there for each other throughout the camp, comforting each other, sharing our personal stuffs and it was awesome! it really was. am glad i joined RCIY. am glad i went for the camp. i learnt a lot of things. not only about christ, but also about life. it did mature my thinking to a certain extend. (:

its oh so amazing!

2010-06-16T01:40:00.002+08:00

From The Secret Daily Teachings

It is so important that you are grateful for everything in your life. Many people focus on the one thing they want and then forget to be grateful for all the things they have. Without gratitude you cannot achieve anything, because if you are not emanating gratitude from your being, then by default you are emanating ungratefulness. Be proactive and use the frequency of your being to receive what you want.

Rock Climbing today was fun! learnt belaying from uyanga too! (: i would seriously love to rock climb soon. but dont intend to do it regularly. cause i dont want my fingers to be.. well.. unable to stretch out straight. dont wanna look too manly too. recently, i've decided to change mindset on certain things and prioritizing my stuffs differently. i hope this way will make things work out for me better.

anyway, i've decided to make wakeboarding as my leisure hobby and not go for competitiveness. i will still go for trainings every month. but perhaps not every week. it shall depends. (: oh well.. shall see how things work out for me.

2010-06-15T12:52:00.002+08:00

Lesby has been so sweet to me. really appreciate everything she did for me. Was working at the PC show the past few days and she actually bought lunch for me when she came down to get her stuffs. it was beyond words. (: so anyway, on sat night, i asked the girls out for wala wala session. night was awesome and the girls were awesome. we need more girls night out like this!

working at PC show was fun. the peeps were fun. thats the main point. helping each other out in times of need, having lunch/dinner together and gossips. its the people in the team that matters most, and of course the leader too. and we have a pretty good and caring leader. thus, its the reason why it bought the team much closer together. (:

ahhh! i'm off for rock climbing session! =D

2010-06-01T10:04:00.006+08:00

"Pure love has no conditions or boundaries. Love does not restrain itself or hold back. Love gives all the time and doesn't ask for anything in return. Love is a continuous flow without any limits. And all of this is inside you."

once again, this is adapted from the Secret. Love is all about giving. (:

Results are out and well, my grades are... really bad.. i kinda expected it i guess. but i didnt know it will pull my gpa down so much. i need to find the motivation to drill myself to study hard once sch starts. sigh. Lesby, jun and i are planning a 2 days 1 night trip to bintan! i'm so excited! a time to finally unwind! (: i dont mind going this weekend either. haha! as long there is sun, beach, clean sea water and wind. SHIOK~! how i wish baby is able to join me. too bad he has work. shall plan another with him alone once he's done with him attachment in tekong! (:

yq just said something which suddenly made me start thinking. and a past situation came flashing by. whenever u needed me, i'll try ways and means to help u out, to understand your situation. when i needed u, u thought of whats best for me, but didnt know what i wanted as u didnt understand how i was feeling. whenever i'm feeling stressed up and at my peak, i always need u by my side to comfort me. i hope my next stress moment would b good. coz this is the 2nd time whereby i went crazy or rather became not myself. even i myself was scared of myself then. =/

2010-05-20T23:04:00.003+08:00

results for sem 2 are coming out real soon. so far the holidays have been NOT busy for me. only during the weekends when i have tuition. damn! i wish tuitions are on weekdays only. ): so i can dedicate my weekends fully for baby.

finally met up with dear today! after so long! had a nice long chat with her, updating each other with our everyday lives while relaxing in the icy cold pool. (:

have been reflecting on my life the past few weeks. and i realized i'm actually very fortunate. i have trustworthy friends whom i can always rely on. i do not need to name you peeps out. i'm sure you know who you are. (: i also have siblings who i can get along very well and rely on in times of need. education wise, though during my early school days my grades were always average or atrocious, the path i took and selected brought me to where i am now and i am thankful for it. who can be as lucky as i am? i'm not those smart people who are able to get into top 10 jc and uni education is so easy for them to score. i was lucky to have chosen to enter poly and get into uni from there. i guess if i chose jc then uni, i might end up in one of those private uni. i'm not saying private uni is bad or anything. i just happen to get into a course that i am able to excel and score. and lastly as for love, i found some one who loves me as much as i love him back. who loves me for who i am and not purely for lust or outer beauty.

am not boasting or anything. but i just feel we should think as positive as possible in life. there may be lots of unhappiness and disappointments in our everyday life. but out of each and every unhappiness and disappointments, there is something to learn from which will benefit us. watching ugly betty recently helped me to recall this point. therefore, why get so upset and angry every time? why dont people just calm down, and think of the learning points? (: dont waste ur energy on getting angry. use it on improving your own character instead.

i really have to thank st margs for having these short devotions every morning which really taught me a lot. if you listen attentively to what was preached, its very helpful in ones daily life. i dont know if they still have this going on, but when mrs lee was still around, these lessons were the best i ever had in st margs.

2010-05-04T10:23:00.002+08:00

Adapted from The Secret

Look for the gifts in everything, especially when you are facing what appears to be a negative situation. Everything that we attract causes us to grow, which means that ultimately everything is for our own good.

Adjusting to a new path and a new direction will require new qualities and strengths, and these qualities are always exactly what we need to acquire in order to accomplish the great things ahead in our life.

yes, this passage really makes me view everything in a positive way. so i hope it will do the same for you. (: exams are over! like finally! and i havent been blogging so much that i almost forgot my login password for blogger. baby is in tekong. what a boring place to be in. whats more he can only book out like during the weekends. or worst, not at all cause of the dear recruits. sigh. dont even have enough time spent with him. it feels like australia/taiwan. although its a little better where i can contact him constantly and see him at least once every week. its still NOT enough! its like a drastic change! i just got to start adapting to it. can you imagine if i have tuition, or he has his other plans? totally no need to meet at all lor. ): haiya.. hate it lah. especially when now i'm having holidays. making me from no pms to have pms only. =/

*slap slap* "Look for the gifts in everything, especially when you are facing what appears to be a negative situation." i wan a chill out session with you. ):

2010-03-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

Its coming to a year with him. time really fly pass super fast. am already completing year 1 in uni in about less den a month time? wow! anyway, charm hearts is officially launched!!! www.charm-hearts. blogspot.com thanks to those who supported our flea on the 20th march too! please continue supporting k? (: and yes! i got my beloved wakeboard too. faith love hope. oh yes~! i'm loving it so so much!!

2010-03-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

Bonjour!!

Charm Hearts has officially launched her website!

Collection 1 is out and Collection 2 is on its way!

Our flea was a success and thanks to those who came down to support and help up!

Love you peeps many many!! (:

my beloved jun called me all the way from aussie yesterday! chatted with her for nearly an hour. (: glad you're coming back soon babe! loves! celebrated baby's daddy's bday today. had chilli and pepper crab for dinner! yummy!! i love crabs! have been craving for a long long time and i finally get to have a chance to have that wonderful taste on my tastebuds! SWEET! baby's mom then passed me a new guess wallet that she didnt use. whee~! i've got a new wallet to use at the mean time before i get my gucci wallet/LV purse! =D baby was so shock when his mama passed me the wallet lah. he kept repeating,"who are you to her? why she so nice give you wallet?" LOL! dont jealous lah baby.. *pat pat* u wanna use the wallet tell me anytime k? i lend u.. =P

2010-03-08T14:48:00.004+08:00

got a shock this afternoon when i got home. maid was lying on floor, grandma and da sao was trying to keep her awake and stuffs. threw my bag immediately to aside and tried fanning her, massaging her, and talking to her. soon, mom got home and we called the ambulance. i hope she'll be alright. may the Lord bless her.

after the ambulance left, grandma kept saying about how she found her lying on the floor unconscious, talked about her shock, and she was so afraid my maid would ........ she then mention about my other grandma, where she found her unconscious on the chair. which she failed to wake her up. sigh. tears almost weld up in my eyes at the thought of it. oh well, hope everything will be fine. au revoir!

2010-03-01T15:20:00.002+08:00

I've just collected my repaired pixon a week ago and i lost it on saturday! WTF! so i've once again lost all contacts.

pissed!

2010-02-21T19:36:00.002+08:00

my ang bao money increased this year! yayness! all thanks the baby's relatives. haha! if not i guess it decreased tremendously despite the new couples each year. this new year has been lucky for me! have been winnning in black jack and in between. whee~! but all small amounts. better than nothing. (: at least i'm winning and not losing like last year.

tests are all coming up. and i've been slacking. like really a lot. sigh. i need to buck up! i'm like lagging behind and i'm still not bucking up! what the hell am i thinking or doing?! this is not poly where i can do last minute study. i need to STUDY!!! MUG MUG MUG!!!

2010-02-14T22:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ROARING YEAR and VALENTINE'S DAY!!

damn! why must these 2 occasions clash together!! take away my precious first vday with my baby! (>.<) boohoo!! did lots of visiting today! (: went over to baby's house for visiting too. wah! damn shy lah! my typical shy, quiet and gentle self came out today. LOL! ben bro came and pick me up after that and we went to gua ma's place. got a new cousin! xD he's so cute and adorable lah! goodness! big round eyes with 2 dimples! and he has such a BRIGHT SMILE!!!

one of my aunt brought a video clip too. it was taken in 1994! saw all of us when we're young, doing stupid things, playing stupid games which are still vivid in our minds. those fun moments were never forgotten (except for some small parts). i had super curly hair too! wahahahaha! its as good as having permed hair!

oh well, end of the first day of chinese new year. more visitings tomorrow!

2010-02-07T15:59:00.003+08:00

went rebel last night. time flies. its been a long time since i last clubbed. and its been a long time since dear and i had fun. and after a long time, this time was the first time both of us rejected drink offers flat! LOL! and its pretty weird why last night were guys in caps. i'm so sure we do not have hip hop looks. =/ hmmm.. it was definately a nightmare for suan too! haha! and its also dear and my first time protecting a guy in a club. gosh! what a night. great night. (:

happy 10th months baby! thanks for all the unconditional love. thanks for all the crazy laugther and nonsense. thanks for everything. love u!

2010-01-10T03:47:00.002+08:00

lunched with natasha today. had a great time with her! it was a fantastic sushi tei lunch. food was fabulous! and we chilled at starbucks! started talking about bio, animals and all sorts of stuffs. (:

headed to vivo to meet jmin. changed my spoilt hair straightener to a brand new one for free!!! woohoo!! i'm happy! yes! i'm glad things between the both of us are better now. not say there's a problem to start with. but at least we start to get along with each other so much better now. and i'm really happy about it. i thought i would not be close to anyone in the club, but i get gatherings and riding sessions does help in a certain extent. i'm glad i went to almost everyone of them. (:

as usual, our dearest president lee was never punctual! 9pm meet, in the end 10pm he arrive. we need to prepare red carpet for him i guess. LOL! wavehoused again! but didnt ride today. saw them ride instead and it did tempted me to ride as well. next week ba. (: i'm eyed on the board i'm intending to get. first goal of the year, save up for my board!!

2010-01-05T01:45:00.002+08:00

i love love love love love my baby so much! (: thank GOD for bringing him into my life.

went to his church friend's wedding on sunday. super nice, special too and i'm glad i went! finally got to meet all his church friends and they sure are nice to talk to. met his best friend lois too! yay! have been wanting to meet all of them and i finally got the chance to. the feeling of your partner wanting to bring you out to meet his important friends of his life really feels great. in fact, after meeting his friends, i feel more relief. i feel relief that he has such good and fun friends around. and all the more i feel relief when he's out with them in future. not that i dont trust him at all but it just feels so much better after knowing them. if you get what i mean. =/ getting to know his friends also means i got to know my boy better. and i'm just so happy! thanks baby!

on sat, was talking to lester and ryan about long distance relationship. it sure is tough to maintain but its possible. lester said one sentence that i remembered clearly, "trust is the one that breaks the r/s". trust is really very important in a relationship be it long distance or not. therefore, i'm still learning to trust fully. and i will in time to come. (: if only scandals, flings and affairs do not exist in the dictionary. not saying my boy will hor! he definately has my trust on that!

heart baby many many!!
i love my girls too!!! *muuuuuacks*

2010-01-03T03:51:00.002+08:00

i'm back from wavehouse. fun fun fun! a whole new experience. i love my cca. like seriously. get to experience all sorts of new stuffs! fun people in there too! (:

everyone was asking everybody their results, gpa and stuffs. made me feel a little demoralized as my grades aint that good. first class, second upper, wah! when will i have that kind of grades?! i seriously got to x100000 times of hard work for remaining semesters.

YES! i wanna get my own board. heard from jiamin there's a purple board for the 2010 edition! ahhhh!!! i really really wanna get one.. who wanna get it for me? any sponsors?! =D i gotta save up! and to think i've got no more tuition. sigh. i got to work something out so i can cover all my wakeboard expenses. tuition anyone? to think my grades already so cui. still wanna give tuition. *faints* who want sia.. haiz.. i want to get my own personal board but yet i dont think i'm capable of getting it. i just got to save. and i'm gonna start today! yes! but i know its quite tough for me as i still have to go for training often. aint complaining cause i enjoy my trainings. (:

2009-12-30T18:52:00.002+08:00

results released today and i'm so relief! however my gpa is kinda disappointing. ): i guess i just got to work harder the next semester. and good news is, i passed each and every module. (: bad news is, i still have physics and maths next sem!!! damn!

holidays are ending soon! part of me dont wan holidays to end, but part of me wans to start school so i have things to do again! no more slacking this time round!

2009-12-26T00:02:00.003+08:00

met lesby on monday to get stuffs for the jolene's bday and xmas celebration. was damn tired after that. we practically walked from thru and fro and back a couple of times and my legs were aching at the end of the day. exhausted!

baby and jun then came over to my house on wed deco the xmas shirts. i must say i'm very pleased with the outcome! its so cute luh! and each and every shirts are all so unique. (: dear came and pick me up with her new car in the night and off we went to arab street.. good chill out session we had. (: and love all the catching up we had too. its been long since we met up to have a good time with each other.

xmas party over at my house yesterday was awesome! everything went well i must say. and i'm sure everyone had fun with the wii. LOL! snowflakes made a CD for me and it was damn sweet!! i nearly teared actually but luckily i didnt. or else i will be damn paiseh. thanks babe! really love the video you all put in effort to come up with.

i've gotten more and more sick today and i hope to recover soon. cough is getting real bad and flu is coming. damn! i slept for almost the whole day today. and i had an awesome dinner!! baby's parents bought pepper crab and stingray!! wahh!! yummy!! me love!! xD

2009-12-20T18:06:00.002+08:00

baby is at camp today. leaving me all home alone. ): boohoo!!
just played wii with my 2nd bro. play till my finger cramped. =/

went to baby's officer's wedding yesterday. it was an awesome wedding! his wedding is so grand. one of the best malay wedding i've been to. and its really really nice.. their culture gives me the very warmth and homely feel. makes me feel like getting married too! i hope all these cultures will be passed down to the newer generations. (:

head home for grandma's surprise birthday celebration after that. baby seen about half of my paternal relatives and he already thought its a lot! haha! there's more to come baby! there's still the maternal side. xD

shall start on my gossip girls episodes! tata!

2009-12-15T12:57:00.003+08:00

*ahhhh~*
baby baby!!
life's been good.
another hidden msg u know?
with him around everything is good.
i'm playing professer layton with you! LOL!
with my girls around everything is wonderful.
you on duty now and i'm missing you..
quote from kf: "life's great!"
every night is so great with you around.
been nua-ing all the way at home and even when i'm out.
thou i appear to be super sian at times. its cos of my nua mood.
no good!
and when i nua and stone, i dont smile.
i need to get the vibe back where i will b so active and energetic!
and when i dont smile my face look damn black.
where did it all go?! OH NO!!!!
so dont misunderstand that i bad mood k?
i dont wanna be a boring person!
so sorry baby! and I LOVE YOU!
damn!

2009-12-08T15:32:00.003+08:00

holidays are here and i need $$$$!!! no job = no money. going out = spending money. no in but always out. how can!!! i need a job!! baby is gonna be my sugar daddy this month!! i dont care!! LOL!

you will always be the one for me. (:

2009-12-07T03:26:00.002+08:00

how does falling in love feels like?

sky diving. u fear at the start. but as you fall, you notice the surroundings, enjoy the wind and the scenery. you will realize what a great experience this is. you wont get to experience an identical jump the next try. in fact you will learn to appreciate it more, and take note of more details on your next jump. as time pass, you are nearer to the ground. and when you finally touch down, i guess that's an advance chapter of love. (:

this is how i feel. how about you?

i'm near the ground. i can feel. after so many jumps that i failed to put in effort to take note of my surroundings, this jump was one of a kind. a jump that will never fail to put a smile across my face during the whole journey. my heart still pounds fast from all the excitement. and i'm anticipating for even more after i land on the ground. will i buy a land and build my own home on it? or will i take another jump and look for a new landing ground?

i guess the answer is more or less clear. i'm already anticipating landing on the ground. what else can my answer be? (:

i'm... i'm in love. and i know this time its different. this time its real. (:

2009-12-06T02:07:00.002+08:00

exams are finally over and i'm finally FREE!! YES!!

i went almost crazy the past week! like seriously crazy! my mood was up and down, up and down. serious pms-ing going on too. but passed 11am on 2nd dec, everything was back to normal. LOL!

birthday celebration at NSRCC was great! thanks to many who came and thanks to my dearest girlfriends and my boy for planning the events and the surprises for me. a BIG THANK YOU! (: love all of you so much! (: my sweetest boy played on the guitar and sang for me. my girlfriends brought out all their courage to sing on stage for me with my boy. how can i not love them you tell me? they are the sweetest thing on earth one can ever find. and i guess i'm the lucky one on earth who found them! (: thanks snowflakes for all your efforts. practicing and planning. i seriously didnt know that was coming. thanks baby for playing the guitar and practicing so hard. i kinda guessed you will be playing already but i thought it was on the 26th nov, not 28th. but u didnt on 26th. so i didnt think much till 28th when your friends hasnt arrived at 6.30pm.

sorry to my boy for making things difficult for you. cause your lying was not convincing enough and it was a point of time when i needed you most. though i know you were planning something for me with the girls but i just needed your presence too much. (>.<)

oh well, enough said. i hope everyone who came enjoyed themselves and the event specially planned by my girlfriends. if it werent for them i guess this will be a normal chit chat, chilling party. and yes! my cake turned out to be damn AWESOME!!! i totally love it!!! ahhh!!! my royal praline (cake name)! *hearts prego (bakery name)*

holidays here and i come! and i'll definately have a hell lot of a great time!!! (:

2009-11-22T18:57:00.005+08:00

FUCK exams! FUCK calculus! FUCK having birthdays at this period of time! FUCK!

everything just piles and piles and piles. never ending.

depression.

burnout.

fuck.

quit or not to quit? i need motivation. fuck CBC. fuck NTU. fuck singapore education systems!

was talking to my room mate the other day. before school starts, getting first class honour was our goal. however, once school starts, we only hope to pass and graduate.

2009-11-17T18:04:00.002+08:00

just went to shower to refresh myself from all the organic chem.. gosh! how can someone remember so many machanisms and reagents that is being taught within a sem! a total of 21 chapters with dozens of machanisms n reagents to memorize from each topic! this is crazy! the worst is, after studying, doing of the past year papers makes you feel like you didnt study at all! wtf! i cant wait for exams to over and just relax and go for multiple wakeboard trainings!!

i need my baby!! *roarrs*

2009-11-11T18:24:00.002+08:00

time for a proper post. crashed lesby's lecture last week. was studying for organic chem there. i like the classroom. cause there are proper tables to write on.. she had presentation after the lecture. and wow! one of the best marks she got!!! congrats man! yup.. anyway, my paper on friday. well.. hopefully can pull up my overall grade.. dont know the results yet. but i hope my efforts will not go to waste.

last week of lectures and tutorials. finals starts next week and i'm not prepared. ): there are so much to study. i just hope there will be enough time to restudy each and every topic. baby has been calling me so much lately. (: something to look forward each day. i'm dying on maths. goodness! first time in my entire life! my maths grades are so going down! everyone has started mugging. everywhere i go, as long as there are break in between, there will b people studying. *faints* i miss poly life. slack and you still can score damn well.. for uni life, tutorials and past year papers may not help. you really got to know how to apply, keep doing questions and even extra questions from the text. i'm so pack with exercises for myself and i'm going nuts.. boo!!

2009-11-07T00:51:00.002+08:00

i'm happy cause my student passed her english and science..
i'm happy cause organic mid term part 3 is over..
i'm happy cause i ate 3 'longs' of xiao long bao..

but i aint happy..

2009-10-27T20:53:00.004+08:00

failed another test. this time a 20% test paper. yeah. i got only 5%. how wonderful.. what's worst is when i did study hard for it. tmr maths paper gonna be returned to us. dat is a confirm fail too. cant do a single shit.. 3 out of 6 modules passed. wad's worst is the ones i passed, are NOT my CORE modules at all.. OH! my maths results just release. guess what? i got 4.9/20.. bravo.. i dunno how i should feel now.. but i'm speechless at myself.. did i reach the max of my brain storage? is this course not for me? i need someone now.. badly.. but.............. sigh..

2009-10-21T22:41:00.004+08:00

life sucks! sch sucks! test sucks! failed organic chem badly.. dammit! baby is now in aussie. sigh. when is he coming back when is he coming back?! bday party almost finalized. FINALLY! gotta start mugging already.. roars!! am upset!!!

oh yeah.. baby got me a NDS.. (: something to accompany me for the time being..

2009-09-02T23:18:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging till i fogot my blogger password. =/

been busy with school. lots of printing to do. lots of reading to do.

i'm stress! YES! STRESS! i hope i can scrap through uni.

joined wakeboarding as my cca. yea. stress with school and still take up a cca.
i've got no choice. i wanna stay in hostel the following year. so i gotta be active.
got into the main committee too. hope i can get into the team as well.
high chance i guess. i hope.
committee meeting tomorrow. excited. (:
cant wait to meet the rest of the team. cant wait to start my first training with them.
but i got to miss this sat's training due to stupid maths make up lecture. disappointed.

lesby and jun crashed lecture today. (: nice company. thanks babes! appreciated.
dear crashed my lecture before too. she came down after work.
best of all, my dearest baby crashed twice already. when will be the third time? =D
anymore lecture crashers? text me alright? haha!

so many birthday celebrations these few months. almost every week once.
last month alone, yq's, jun's and recently zj's. i'm not very excited for mine.
half hearted planning already. hate physics for once!
dont understand, and exam got to fall on the 26th nov! f**k!
in fact, i dont even know if i've got the cash to plan one. ):
any willing sponsors?
i've been trying to save. but i cant. seriously.
and given the start of my cca, i doubt i can even save now.
training at least twice a month. per training is already near to $50.
no income somemore. how to save?
worst of all, the most important person wont be present.
though i know it way before hand, but it doesnt help in making me feel better.
either way, the feeling still sucks.
and it sucks even more when its on my 21st. sigh.
i've got no choice too. no magic skills. no miracles. its work. and i cant stop him.
cause its work.

i'm off to studying. no point ranting here either. i will only get nothing done.
i can only hope for the best. and pray for the best.

2009-08-10T01:41:00.000+08:00

so far i've drove my bro's car twice and mom's car once. almost got into an accident today. =X was exiting the round about and i stopped last minute which i almost banged onto a taxi driver. heng never luh! and luckily its in the night. uncle cannot see my face. hohoho! =X first round about and i totally forgot about the giveway line there. dammit! oh well! it was a close shave and a lesson learnt today. (: drove baby to selegie for tau huey and back to his place. first time on CTE and it was SHIOK! =D however the lack of knowledge in roads is super terrible! it made me more blur and confused. ): dammit! i got to know the roads much much better! practice makes perfect! Thanks baby for beliving in me. love ya!

went to collect room keys on sat and well, my roomie is a mongolian. i hope i can click with her. she's in a total different course from me. room looks very new and there is air con. but i think the prepaid service hasnt started operating. baby went to shop with me for my stuffs to be brought to hostel. so far so good. and i'm moving in on tuesday morning!! my 2nd home..

2009-08-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

have you ever been in suspense before?

i'm sure everyone did. and i do not like the feeling somehow, be it good or bad. i trust my intuitions, and these intuitions just leads me on further. thus causing this sense of suspense happening. how does one overcome this feeing? ask and find out? but what if asking is not an option, and observing makes this feeling stronger as it takes time, and curiousity just take over.

i wonder.

2009-07-31T23:56:00.000+08:00

i want a car badly now!! dammit! when you dont own a licence, you say, "too bad no licence, or not can... blah blah blah.." now when i own a licence, i only can say, "too bad i dont own a car." haiz.. oh well, baby and i are making plans to get a car. so we shall see how ba. (:

got a mini HP laptop!! yay! wanted to get a acer one today and mom was willing to sponsor. called her up and she said dad has one. so i called dad and he's willing to give it to me! hooray! and its brand new la! xD yippy!

ahhh.. i'm so tired from work. off to bed. Zzz..

2009-07-28T18:17:00.003+08:00

wOo hoO~!

i live up the name of the chan family! xD 1 time pass! yes! i've got my driving licence already!! i'm overjoyed! thanks for all the best wishes! and seriously, thank GOD for guiding me through my test. i prayed so hard the night before, this morning, and just before my test. sang worship songs to calm myself down which did help me a little, and ta dah!!! I PASSED! this isn't the first time i prayed so hard and sang worship songs to calm myself down. the first time was during IAP presentation. i came out with good remarks and even got to present again to obtain distinction. Praise the LORD! like seriously, THANK GOD!!! (: also got to thank dear for passing me her 1 time pass luck. and augustine too! haha! =D

back from tioman with baby, and yes, we are back safely. first day was average. reached there late afternoon and we explored around. 2nd day was more fruitful. went snorkelling, enjoyed the sea breeze, rode a motorbike without a licence for only RM30/hr, and had seafood dinner. i enjoyed every minute and second spent there with baby. thanks for planning this trip B. =D and i'm definately going back there to get my diving licence! anyone up for it with me?! RM150 only i think. super cheap luh! but i think excluding gears. ahh!! i want more holidays! i dont want school to start so soon. ): will be staying in hostel too. i think i will be home sick. =/ oh yeah! i got exempted for 2 modules! woohoo~! but i guess it wont shorten my course of study till 3.5 years also. its only 2 modules. (-.-") but better than nothing! i'm glad every thing is going so smoothly for me. i like~! except for my complexion recently! damn terrible! =/

mask time!! au revoir!!

2009-07-15T15:12:00.003+08:00

met baby and his fren jason on sat to be tourist of singapore! xD we headed down to SP first to support jason's sis for her FYP. we got $30 each helping her out too. got to do all sorts of eye test and its a relief my eyes are perfectly well. i hope my check up at TTSH next monday will turn out well too. we took the money and used it on cab fare to discovery centre and army museum. they were contemplating whether to head over to science centre or discovery. i've been to both and preferred science centre more, and they blamed me for not informing them how boring discovery is. LOL!

went seperate ways and headed for zi rui's bday. cool lounge. not bad settings. too bad i only know less than a handful of people there. however cab fare back home cost lesby and me $30 in total!! *faints* such a ulu area! argh!

sunday was sentosa with baby and jason again. xD took cable car into sentosa, watched the 4D magix pirates show, went underwater world and dolphin lagoon, took the luge ride and sky ride twice each, went into the merlion, and it was hell lots of fun with only.. $20 spent each for the whole day? yeah baby~ good deal! xD and they were still blaming me for not telling them about science centre. ): luckily jun has vouchers for science centre and snow city! we'll be heading down together soon! da vinci exhibition here i come!! xD

i'm be heading to tioman next week! i'm so excited! woot!

2009-07-14T22:49:00.003+08:00

Wo shi xing fu xiao nu ren!

i feel so fortunate today. yes i do! =D firstly, my 'ji pun' baby bought my favourite water bottle for me! i was telling her i wanted to get a water bottle for sch and was thinking of purple or pink. i'm so touched that she remembered what i said! further more, she got me the bottle i wanted, and it has both purple and pink. LOL! when i saw it, i was just so lost for words. Thanks girl! loves!

secondly, baby made me angry by being super unreasonable with me. he got what he wanted. making me angry. in fact his goal was, the angrier i am the better. i was asked to help him to meet up with this person to collect some stuffs for him. den he kicked up a big fuss like if its inconvenient for me its ok, if i'm doing it for him so unhappily den might as well dont do it. and all these just started by me asking him one question, "who is this delivery person?" of course i felt him being so short tempered for nothing and got pissed with him. in the end, the delivery person was him. (-.-") he got me the sling bag i wanted. =D so how can i say i'm still not fortunate?

thirdly, i met my babe in search of mouse at sim lim. got a mouse and she paid part of it for me. she treated me dessert and dinner. offered to pay her back but she rejected. so how how how can i not be fortunate? my babe taking such good care of me, my 'ji pun' baby being so thoughtful, and my baby being so sweet. i'm glad i have all of them in my life. in fact, there are some more chicks that are not mentioned whom i'm really glad to have them in my life too. (:

love all of you many many. i'm sure you know who you are if your names are not mentioned.

2009-06-27T02:02:00.003+08:00

met up with faiz, aud, jolene and yq on thurs for lunch. had pizza hut. collected my samsung pixon too! its finally working properly! xD walked around ps for a little while. went into cotton on as yq wanted to buy black pumps which she ended up not buying, and lesby wanted to buy a skirt and ended up not buying too. (-.-") while lesby was busy trying on her skirt and everything, jolene and faiz happily took a hanger, and hung up her bag onto the rag. LOL! yq left for work and the rest of us bused down to wisma. 3 of them were so sweet to accompany me to wisma to meet up with dear. thou the main purpose was faiz wanting to go to taka zara. =/ chatted with dear awhile and left to meet my baby! xD baby's mummy bought nasi lemak from serangoon. the chicken wing nice luh! but i still think the bishan one nicer.

as for today, met jun for lunch. supposed to have swensens but ended up eating at carls junior. LOL! i coped some of their tissues for baby's tissue dispenser. hahaha! and i totally made it so obvious. i cant steal or lie la! i can never slip passed it! my eyes and expressions totally gave it away! dammit! we walked around town and headed to marina sq. met dear there and settled at gloria jeans for awhile. baby came down awhile later after his staffs and we sat there waiting for abel and thinking what to write on dear's guestbook. we had crazy ideas and baby's idea are the worst! "when girls become women", "GAS book". i came up with one, "memoirs of Yvonne" eh! not bad lor. i shall put that down for mine! provided i'm celebrating. still considering. i've got no parents helping me to pay lor. unlike lesby and dear. ): maybe jun and i will carry out our plans. we shall join both of our bday celebration and celebrate in between our bday dates. LOL!

went into times book store and we got so hooked up on the zodiac and horoscrope book. only we 3 girls got so hooked up on it and agreeing and disagreeing with the books. LOL! went our seperate ways as abel is hungry, the rest of us are not, and baby is having a headache since dunno when. ): went to baby's place and lucky is so greedy! his mummy and daddy were eating durians and he was sitting by the table attentively! his daddy took the seed and let lucky lick, and lucky just snatched with him. LOL! greedy dog. what also eat la! goodness!

baby said lucky is willing to do anything just for food. he could fight with a much bigger sized dog just for food. swim in the sea just for food (he's afraid of water). goodness! the stories baby told me, and from me witnessing once lucky smelt any food, he's indeed one super greedy dog. never seen one like him before. that's what makes him so unique i guess. (: super cute.

oh yeah. organizing wakeboarding session on monday 10am-2pm at puggol country club. so far gotten 4 confirmed peeps. need 1-2 more person. anyone interested please text me. its $290 per boat. so it depends on how many confirmed parties. 5 people will be $58 each. obviously 6 people will be lesser. no worries if you dont know how to swim. there's life jacket. (: text me asap alright? thanks!

2009-06-16T22:06:00.004+08:00

came back from malaysia on sunday night. wedding thereat kuan tan was a great experience! daryl bro and me felt like we went back to the past. haha! there was even firecrackers which ben bro had to light it. LOL! took a picture of him lighting the crackers and his expression was priceless! =P it was a really traditional wedding which is a very rare experience to come by since SG now is so modern, and these traditions are losing its originality form as generations past.

da sao's yeye is a hunter, and he managed to hunt down an eagle, wild cat and wild boar. wild boar is common, but not eagle and wild cat. the eagle meat is super tasty and the wild cat meat is super tender. damn nice luh! xD didnt eat much as i felt i shouldn't. =/

ahh.. of the whole trip i miss most is mika wong! xD haha! she uber cute lah! xD

2009-06-06T01:44:00.003+08:00

my laptop died on me the past few days. has been telling me that the operating system cannot be found. WTF! need to send it for service soon. ): B took leave the whole of this week! =D have been spending precious time with him. woot! love each and every single time spent with him. love his lame-ness, love his nonsense, love his everything. its his each and every lame shit that made me wanna love him so much. xD a few days back he sent me a 'poem' via sms while he was returning home from work. it went..

"Just past your house, the lights brightly lit.
Lazing through the hours, wishing soon that we could meet.
As the bus drove on, the urge grew strong,
to tell you i love you."

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

melting, melt, melted.

last night was coughing badly and i couldnt sleep. my sweet B woke up in the middle of the night just to find ways to bring my coughing down and he eventually went to buy cough syrup for me. (: thanks B. appreciate it lots!

bro's wedding last week was awesome! i need to find time to load the pics up. facebook aint doing me a great favour by failing my uploads. next week going to malaysia for wedding round 2! as my da sao's grandpa is a hunter, he has stock up exotic food for us! i'm so excited! cant wait to try them. pocupine meat.. hmmm... shall share my experience when i'm back. hopefully my laptop will be nice and kind enough to work.

graduation last week was awesome too! xD took some pics but not many. fortunately there are crazy pics taken at botanic garden with my crazy lesby and jeanna! they totally made my graduation a good one. all thanks to kay min, our photographer too! we all had our fair share of perspiration contributed.

had a mini supperQ (BBQ past midnight). name given by my dearest B. had a wonderful catch up with my girls! lesby and YQ came over early to help out. not forgetting my boy too. he was busy washing the mushrooms, and doing most of the chores for us, while we were busy baking brownie which turned out fantastic! slacked in the karaoke room while waiting for the ZJ and the BIG ARRIVAL OF FAIZ, who arrived like.. 2plus? if i didnt remember wrongly. BBQed to the wee hours and one by one of us just knock out. everyone left around 8am, and i went to B's house to spend my day there sleeping. (-.-") faiz!! study hard and get into NTU!! be my junior next year k? i'm waiting! we can stay in the same hostel too! wah! that will be damn fun!! xD

2009-06-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

deleted my previous entry as it was written at a moment of anger. wasn't thinking straight last night. however after some cooling down session and reflecting, it wasn't true at all. i am being loved constantly, being pampered, doted and given in constantly. i just didnt think of the whole big picture. i only focus on a small part and at that point of time only. and subsequently, i'm being given in once again. (: thanks B. thanks for sacrificing so much for me. thanks for setting up the fire on sat for us and taking care of me when i'm sick even though you are sick too. thanks for prioritising me first in everything you do. thanks for being so forgiving with all my nonsense and pms times. thank you B, thank u so much. i love you.

2009-05-07T23:07:00.003+08:00

did anyone remember? its Mrs lee's death anniversary today. years just flew past so fast and easily. time wasted on being sad, being disappointed, being angry, being negative. Therefore, for my upcoming days, time will be spent wisely! filled with smiles, laughter and happiness.

I will persevere on because of you and be determined in making everything possible. with your support, i'm sure i can and i definately will. (:

invigilation today was tiring. dress code was formal. however when i reached there.. TMD!!! so many people wear jeans and polo tee!!! *angry* =X so i'm going to wear sandals and jeans tomorrow. will be super slack. i dont care! (>.<)

dinner is good and i'm enjoying each and every moment of my time.

body is no good. i'm aching all over due to wakeboarding on tuesday. i've converted from chinese to malay. =/ soon to be a 'chin-dian' in time to come. more wakeboarding sessions! =D

2009-05-06T18:58:00.002+08:00

Edna has lost her sense of direction.

She's on the verge of giving up everything. Yet she's unable to.
Troubled troubled troubled.

FUCK!

2009-05-02T10:02:00.003+08:00

From this day on, I've decided to stay in hall for my full 4 years. Firm decision on it and I will strive to get a hall throughout my uni days. Its all these little things, made it into a big thing to you all, that's why I end up like THIS, and become like THIS. no more depending on you anymore in future. oh no! wait a minute, I've never depended on you at all in fact, from the start! It was all her efforts. You did nothing.. you didn't contribute at all.. OH! there I go again. I'm sorry, I guess you did contributed in a way. You contributed sarcasm. That's how I learnt my sarcasm from too. You contributed saddness and depression to people. You contributed anger and violance. And I'm never or have NEVER been proud of you.

I envy others. ALOT in fact. Like why am I here yadah yadah yadah. Why do they have this and that but in my story or our story, it just didnt happened. Every little word you said to me before, even YEARS back, I've remembered clearly. Cause it hurts. and I can strongly say, I dont think I've hurt u AT ALL! You know why? Cause you are a self centered person who only knows how to hurt the rest around you without you knowing it. I cared. I tried to know you all better. I tried my best. But have you? She knows how to show a little appreciation to me when I put in effort to get to know her better. But as for you? NOTHING! However, THANKS to you, I realized that I've the determination to work towards what I want. I've learnt to be strong. No worries, I will still repay you in future. With kindness, with patience, and with love. because I'm not self centered and I chose to respect right from the start of this journey, and I will continue with this decision.

2009-04-18T14:29:00.004+08:00

my bro just told me that if i wear cat ears, i will look like this cat. LOL! WTF LA!!

him: ur display pic. if u wear cat ears will be similar like my cat pic
me: wth
him: u see carefully lor. abit similar. LOL
me: wth!!! omg la!
him: i see the smile then i like wtf..same sia..
summore head also same angle
me: ur sis looks like a cat
an animated cat some more

2009-04-17T02:17:00.004+08:00

I DIG VACUUM FREEZE-DRIED MANGOSTEEN!!!
jun, u should have just bought one carton for me la!! =X

went for driving today. and as i have hoped for, YES! Stage 2 completed! =D now have to wait a few more weeks later to continue my practical. (: went over to jun's place for squash session. gosh! i'm seriously bad at ball games. =/ with much practice, i'm sure i'll improve! =D wahh!! i'm munching away the mangosteen while blogging. sinful luh!! but damn shiok! and oh yes! went juicy couture yesterday. saw a necklace and my god!! love at first sight la!! so i did something sinful again!! i bought it. damn! but no post syndrome. and i'm very satisfied with my loot! xD

isnt she a beauty?? =D

2009-04-09T20:03:00.004+08:00

everything is going so well for me now. (: my offical letter has finally arrived! 100% relaxed and heavy load gone. lesby, yq and my secret mission is going off very well at the moment. my driving is currently on stage 2. plan to complete by next week which i believe its possible. and just a few more lesson and my stage 3 and 4 will be clear and here comes my green card soon. and my relationship? well, never been better. (: so many things cleared and settled. i'm happy! yes yes!! in fact, SUPER HAPPY!! depite my lonely days these days.

anyway, i'm planning to get bike license after my driving. any objections? LOL! but i will get it slowly step by step with my own money as my parents will DEFINATELY wont approve me of bike. =/ all thanks to my dearest dad and ben bro's history. (-.-")

2009-04-01T18:08:00.003+08:00

driving lesson today was great. started driving on the real road and drove passed my house twice. =D instructors today were nice too. learnt a lot from them. better than the 2nd instructor i got on monday where i practically learnt NOTHING from him. he just kept quiet and watch me drive and when i drove a little out of the lane he just tell me i'm too left or right. and yes! he LOVES to JAM BRAKE for me!! only under him my engine stalls a million times!! with other instructors my engine didnt stall more den 5 times k! stupid instuctor. so full of himself. i hope i'll NEVER EVER get him again. waste of my money!

oh well.. another thing to be happy about for those who knows, YES! i'm waiting for the arrival of my OFFICAL LETTER!! 90% of the heavy load in me has been put down yesterday. just the letter and i'll be 100% relax. =D

GREEN CARD!! U WILL OFFICALLY BE MINE BY JUNE/JULY!! heh heh~!

2009-03-31T13:36:00.002+08:00

lesby's birthday party was a BLAST! thank lord everything went smoothly and successfully. though there were some disagreements at one point of time, and some mishaps, but everything was handled well and VIOLA! my lesby's 21st birthday was a SUCCESS!! (: congrats lesby in turning 21. may ur future road ahead be a smooth one and go according to what you have planned. love you much much.

so at the start of the chalet, we checked in. first thing done was washing the sticky floor. lesby's mom was sitting outside 'supervising' us and snapping photos of us at work. LOL! some really unglam ones. =/ cleaning up the chalet brought back memories of spring cleaning in st margs. where we literally have fun playing with water. so we start working on the banner and did some shopping. the banner came out really well and all thanks to the 3 great minds and hardwork. =D

clock strikes 12 and lesby first minute of 21 was being blindfolded and brought out the the shower at the pool. and yes, i misled her and she fell into the drain. =X i'm so sorry!! i didnt know a drain exist at that part of the pavement! and not the guys distract me k~ *ahem* they are a bunch of kids. only ZJ favourite. =X so we started throwing wipe cream, flour and spray ribbons on her. showering her with all our blessings. gave her her present and she presented each of us a thank you card. really sweet of her. (: we turned in early that night in preparation for the long hours the next day.

throughout her party, yq and i were busy taking polorids for her and getting people to fill up the guest book. zj was busy taking photos everywhere with the DSLR. and lesby were busy entertaining all her guest. her cake was awesome! its more for the sweet tooth. however it still do taste good. the chef had to re-bake as he was unsatisfied and brought it down for her personally. what a great chef la! i think i want my cake to be 2-tier or 3-tier. =D that night when the clock strikes 12, it was a switch over. sook fung's bday next and she was drunk within 10 minutes? LOL! she damn funny after that la. oh well, i hope the 2 bday girls enjoyed their day. (:

so i started my driving lesson yesterday. and learnt all the way to 2nd gear shifting. =D next lesson is tomorrow and i'm looking forward to who is my instructor. i hope i get a nice instructor. (:

2009-03-25T14:16:00.005+08:00

i'm back from krabi.. a long time ago. yes~! it was a definately enjoyable trip. all the different activities i've never tried before. except for snokelling. other than that, the rest was a good first experience. so departed on the 14th march. (suddenly i feel like copy paste the whole of mr goh's blog entry) reached phuket in the night so not much activities but took the coach to krabi. krabi's 4 star hotel was damn good! nice ambience, good service! however, breakfast was okay~ and lots of mosquitos! practically the whole of thailand was filled with these irritating pest.

the next day, our first stop was ATV. at the start, i crashed into the bushes and other pavement once each. after getting more familiar with the whole 'machine', everything was fine until.. down slope. kabir was in front of me and i was going down fast without accelerating, and with brakes which did not work as what it is meant for, i turned to the side in order to avoid crashing into him, and my ATV when up the side, flipped, and i flew out den glided a little. so poor me, half filled with mud, blood oozing out from both legs and bruises forming slowly. when the whole ride was finished, i washed my wound and they applied iodine for me. but damn useless la! cause the next activity is river rafting!! apply also next minute going to be washed away. (-.-") so we went river rafting without a pedal for some of us, as there were way too many people!! so i practically sat on the raft and enjoy my 'tai tai' adventure. other rafts splashed water on us and my stupid instructor at the back of me threw a long brown wet dead leaf on me and went, "argh!!" main objective: to scare me. however, dar and me just looked down and stare with no expression. LOL! there are just so many hilarious stuffs that happened during rafting. too bad everything are not captured down on cam. ): next was hot spring and goodness! damn shiok can!! i love it man~! =D

third day was boarding the speed boat and off we went for island hopping and snokelling. chasing swamps of silver fishes as well. the whole group of us even surrounded the fishes. (-.-") thats how child-like we became during the trip. =D the way to enjoy the whole trip to the fullest! reached phi phi for dinner than took a cruise back to phuket. during the journey, most of us fell asleep despite our wet clothings still on and the air-con blowing at us. reached our hotel, had our bath, and off for dinner and SHOPPING! =D oh! looking at transexual too! those pubs there, wah! damn slutish looking girls and ladyboys! wanted to take pics with the ladyboys as some were dressed in costumes. however, we need to tip them. so, i dropped the idea. haha! after the tiring shopping, everyone gathered at our room (dar, mel and me), for finishing up of baileys and soft drinks. the previous night was the same too!

last day in thailand and time seriously pass damn fast! went parasailing for mel, chai hui and me, and go cart for the guys. next, the trip was cashew nut factory followed by massage or shopping. obviously for me will be shopping as i've not shopped enough!!! got lots of tees and bought some mangos back for grandma, and on the flight back to singapore, i realized she was in china. (-.-") luckily i bought some not ripe mangos, and luckily they are able to last till she came back. =D

2009-03-04T12:30:00.002+08:00

第一句　
如果我们之间有1000步的距离，你只要跨出第1步，我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步。

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，才是真正爱你的人。

第三句
付出真心，才会得到真心，却也可能伤得彻底。保持距离，就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞。

第四句
有时候，不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重。

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人。

第六句
就算是believe，中间也藏了一个lie。

第七句
真正的好朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题。而是在一起，就算不说话，也不会感到尴尬。

第八句
没有一百分的另一半，只有五十分的两个人。

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的，是敌人。为你的快乐而快乐的，是朋友。为你的难过而难过的，就是那些　该放进心里的人。

第十句
冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的工具。

These sentences, are definately not typed by me. its CHINESE! since when did my chinese inproved till this standard. LOL! received this through email and found it meaningful. i personally like no. 2, 3, 4, 6, and 7. =D

this week is such boring week! no work no nothing. free everyday except for this coming sat whereby i'll be going rebel. but i kind of dont feel like going. somehow sian of clubbing. however we're celebrating ian, arab and fu lin's birthday. =/ baked cookies on monday night. parents wasnt home and i wasnt out. amazingly i didnt havoc at all la! so yeah~ decided to bake to kill time. baking is fun. and i shall try more and more weird stuffs. haha! and whoever i meet that day or the next or somewhere around the next few days shall all be my guinea pigs! heh heh~! especially klein! =X who is currently my ntuc shopping partner for my baking groceries.

2009-02-26T11:51:00.002+08:00

batam trip was great! though i was unable to make it for the go kart. but the company was too good i didnt regret making the trip down. (: went to batam by myself and was so afraid i will get lost or get cheated by some taxi driver! luckily mr goh hired a cab for me to wait at my ferry terminal. the driver was driving so slow when it comes to humps or uneven roads. i think he went about 10km/h? or even less. it seems like it took me ages to reach my destination.

sat on the banana boat with mr goh and some of the program 5 peeps. the ride was really slow but the people on the ride with me made it more enjoyable. did not do any shopping. so i bought nothing at all!!! (T.T) sobz. went for aroma therapy. the massaging session was great yet painful and ticklish. suan, aug and xiaojon was making hell lot of noise la! especially dirty jokes. goodness! rush back to batam center to catch our ferry back to SG. and i definately enjoyed my trip back more than my trip there. LOL!

OMG!!! LESBY IS AT NOVENA WAITING FOR ME NOW AND I'M BLOGGING AT HOME!!

2009-02-22T21:19:00.003+08:00

i've gotten my long wanted phone! =D samsung pixon! yes! and i'm loving it to the max now. my first phone bought with my own hard earn cash! cost me $500 but not a single heartbreak feeling when i look into my bank as i'm very satisfied with my loot. i'm excited for tues! batam yes! here i come! go karting! i hope i will be able to make it there before they change activity!!

2009-02-20T01:36:00.002+08:00

everything has been cleared and resolved. Thank God for it! haha! i am once again standing strong again. =D working for cylon once again and i'm going to chiong for my driving too! aiming to get it by june. or rather before my FTT expires. met dear this afternoonand hugged her to sleep. LOL! even marcus see liao bth. =X went to marcus' dad's place to celebrate his birthday. wa lao~! his father keep filling my bowl with food!! then dear sat so far from his dad, so my bowl kana refilled SO many times! =/ i eat till i wanna vomit la! after dinner still got dessert. worst still, got cake after dessert! *faints* ahh!! need to work later. got to go sleep le. nights everyone!

au revoir!

2009-02-18T15:42:00.003+08:00

NO one if perfect. and i really mean NO ONE! we are God's creation and he made us this way for his own reasons. if i am to be friends with hypocrites, i rather be friends with beggers. because hypocrites are of no better den beggers where they beg for the acknowledgement of their existence. true friends are the one who tells you your flaws straight and tell you what and how they feel. they do not make use of you and they do not speak ill behind your back (even if they do, they confront themselves after that). "Do not judge a book by its cover" this phrase is SO true! and i never will now and in future. Friends who can be kept will be kept always, friends who are unreliable, will be thrown far away.

I thank those friends who have been true to me all along and have always been:
Lesby
ZJ
YQ
Faiz
Dua neh
Jun
Twin
Dear
Girlfriend

2009-02-15T09:41:00.003+08:00

wahhhhh!!! *clears cob webs*

attachment finally over! hurray! presentation on tues and i'll be considered graduated unofficially! woohoo~! valentine's day yesterday was.. boring the whole afternoon, fun during the night, and not bad pass midnight. over all rating.. 2.5/5 stars. LOL! but food was good~! their mom really cook damn well. *loves* there were some picture taking here and there, and trying of cigars too!! but i didnt try la! so huge and smelly. feels like i can die immediately just after one puff. =/

i'm starting to miss my colleagues. ): our last day just seemed to end so fast. not enough time to do so many things. we were just too occupied with things to clear and pack.

true friendship will never be drifted no matter how awful it seems for a period of time. i'm glad this was a true one and a precious one too. doubts and misunderstandings all cleared. heart have been lifted high up again,

thank Lord for making everything possible for this friendship and for bringing the funfilled family into my life. Amen.

2009-01-18T17:29:00.003+08:00

i'm very much recovered le. but sore throat and cough still remains. ): cough did get better, but my throat is getting worst. somehow its swelling. hurts badly. sigh. but my 'snake' thing is healing. (: just hope there wont be any scars.

last night was cousin jason's wedding. the food was good! it was held at vivocity imperial herbal restaurant. not much privacy as the restaurant was still open to public. thus there are waitress/waiters walking in and out with food. fortunately, the food was damn good! =D love the cousin bonding and there's more to come this CNY! =D looking forward to lots of camwhoring!

the 8 brothers
note: the ones who are high on alcohol are the ones who sticked their tongues out. LOL! some of the present cousins. not all are here. these are just 3/4 of my father side cousins. (the drunken uncles told us to give this pose)

2009-01-08T13:27:00.002+08:00

yes, i've gotten 10 days of MC. mainly due to the 'snake' virus i got. some minor version of chicken pox. not very minor also la. heard from grandma that if he grows one circle around the stomach, neck or head, its DEATH! scary la~ =/ heng mine is only on my arm. fortunately there's no more new growth. hoping the current 3 patches i have on my arm will heal fast. i cant go out la. how sad. ): stay home and rot everyday. cant do new year shopping too. oh! i think i'll definately slim down man~ i'm not allowed to eat any meat and egg related food. so i'm basically going vegtarian now. porridge everyday. it quite sian when you face plain porridge 3 meals a day.

2009-01-06T23:29:00.003+08:00

celebrated kelvin chua's bday. talked about the days in st margs. miss those days badly. the way he stressed us about our a maths and all the stupid things that happened. haha! one thing i'll never forget about is the way he would go all out to help his students. (: i'm glad i'm once his student. Praise the Lord! more years of fellowship to come! =D

sometimes, i do miss devotion in school. those countless teachings which made me a more positive person today. i miss st margs! i really do. met jun recently too, and we were talking about GB, going to st johns' chapel during reccess to slack, and everything we did before. even CCA then was so much more enjoyable as compared to poly.

anyway, i'm falling real sick. hoping to recover before CNY. cough, flu, sore throat, nauseous, and even lots of little red water bubbles popping out of my left arm!!! goodness! i'm reducing my nightlife back to normal. less clubbing. definately! less drinking too.

2008-12-27T15:07:00.004+08:00

ahh! so many activities these few weeks and i do not know where to start now. =/ had my company dinner and dance, jo's bday celebration, fahrenheit's concert, xmas eve, xmas day, and yesterday, had dinner to celebrate xiao yu's bday. I think i missed out a little here and there in between. LOL!

shall just post all the pics. enjoy~

2008-12-08T10:48:00.004+08:00

i'm excited i'm excited and YES! I'M VERY EXCITED!! cause STEF IS BACK!! =D going to meet her and the girls soon! misses!!

steamboat with clique at sunset way was good! though it expensive, but its worth it. free flow drinks, crayfish, salmon sashimi. woot! ate lots of crayfish to make it up for out expensive meal. LOL! celebrating twin's and my birthday. i think twin didnt expect we will celeb her birthday as well. anyways, HAPPY 20th TWIN! loves! so everyone squeezed into dear's car but we had to spilt into 2 batches. i sat in both batches and during the guy's batch, the car was moving damn slow. you can actually feel the weight difference! =/ must be dua jiak and suan's butt. =X prawning next up with dear and jo. didnt catch much but i like the time spent with them although i was a little zombie here and there. However, eating of the prawns did kept me very awake throughout.

sat was clubbing at double O!! =D drank lots and its a damn crazy night!! SUPER crazy! but i did enjoyed it and i love this night. i saw my childhood friend there too!! winnie!! such a small world la! she's back from melbourne. didnt catch up much as she wasnt sober and i wasnt too. wasnt in the right state of mind. so we need to catch up soon! REAL SOON!!

2008-11-26T16:45:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

yay! finally 20th! not something to be happy though. end of my teenage years. boo~! special thanks to my girlfriends whom made my last few moments of my teenage years so wonderful and memorable.

thanks to jun, yanping, lesby, jiayu, debra, suat and michelle for making me so malu on sunday. however, i enjoyed every single moment you all planned this day for me, making me feel so blur sotong and didnt realized anything. i swear this is the first time i didnt suspect anything la! its way out of a sudden!

met jun, yanping and suat at tiong bahru plaza, then headed to yanping's house for mahjiong. they then came into the room with a cheese cake personally bake by jun and yp. was so shock and lost for words. this was their cover up the later part. so yeah, we cut the cake, eat the cake and yes, its yummy! =D they gave away lots of hints accidentally and i did not know why i didn't catch a single one!!! so after much woo haa about where we're heading for dinner, they tricked me to fish & co at glass house. waitress gave away hints and as usual, i didnt suspect. walked to the table and poof!! the rest was sitting happily at the table waiting. wahhH! my mouth open big big, eyes open big big, words unable to come out of my mouth. and the first thing i said, 'why you all here?" LOL! later part was the fish & co birthday rap. had to stand up on the chair, hold a sparkle and blow the candle from up there! unfortunately the waitress was stupid enough to come back to our table and ask, 'do you wan a birthday rap?' when i was there. LOL! cake made by jiayu's mom. missed the taste of it and i'm missing it right now. (: Thanks for making this day SO WONDERFUL for me.

Next, thanks to lesby, yanqi, faiz and zijing. YES! for breaking into my house last night!!was out to meet cong zheng opposite my house. lesby then called asking me what time i'll be home as she wanted me to help her with photoshop. so when i reached home, there was a note on the table. asked grandma if my friends came and she just when, "your friends came ar? haha." adding on,"go flip ur blanket." i was still being so blur. huh-ing all the way. grandma ask me to come out and poof! this four ladies appeared in front of me with a damn sweet brownie cake. LOL! speechless as usual yet happy at the same time. it's because of these sweethearts which will only make me look forward to my birthday. without them, i guess i'll be as good as a loner.

Thanks everyone for making my first step into 20's so perfect. i appreciate every single effort you all made. love you girls more than anyone. *hugs* Thank you everyone for all the wishes too! (: a simple message of yours did put a smile across my face. =D since today is my day, i shall not rant about anything. going double O with dear and her friends later. woot!

Au revoir!

2008-11-19T16:19:00.003+08:00

i just won a movie ticket! woohoo~!

my whole week is moving so smoothly~ i like~ OH! but someone STOLE $30++ from my piggy bank la! suspect is my maid. however i cant assume its her as there is no evidence. Found out this morning when i wanted to count how much i saved. UNFORTUNATELY, there wass ONLY $15 left!!! I then thought back that a week plus ago, my printer casing came off and i didnt touch the printer at all, and my laptop had problems! DAMN!

okay! at least i won a movie ticket which i should be happy about. hopefully i get a pair instead of just one. =D

2008-11-18T19:40:00.003+08:00

woohoo~! i've a whole series of plans this and next week! =D excited!

book a series of appointments for myself and meeting up with my beloved friends. (: meeting clique this fri for phuture/zouk. although not all going and some have not seen them for so long. some even more den 3 weeks!! *stares*

then company event at old folks home on sat. all wheelchair bounded. when i heard of it a few week ago, its very heart breaking. WHERE ON EARTH has these family members of theirs gone too?! where's their LOVE and FILIAL for their parents!

singaporeans TOTAL DISGRACE! i seriously curse them to be this state in future. that their child will treat them the same way! when their kids grow up, they send them to old folks home and tell them, "Mom, Dad, this is the place best for you. you brought grandpa and grandma here too. I'm sure you want some memories of theirs." BANG! Hurray! have the taste of being 'thrown' away. waiting and waiting every traditional new year for your families to come visit you, and bring you home. But unfortunately, your fate belongs to this home.

okay, enough of angry things. happy things, sunday meeting jun and suat for mahjiong session followed by dinner! =D miss them lots! there's a whole lot of people i wanna meet too!! such as my dua neh jie mei!! faiz, stef (thou its impossible), pal, and many many more!! ): all those missing in action people.

my honey is so sweet la! he planning a bbq next sat and at the same time celebrating my bday for me. aww~ when he text me telling me this, a smile was kept on my face. =D so many years of honey, indeed a true honey. haha!

and pal!!! stop neglecting ur pal here when u got gf k!! so many months le lor! i had enough of it!! i want to ride on ur bike!!!!!!!

2008-11-16T16:46:00.003+08:00

went beaching last sunday with clique and syidah. woot! played frisbee, suntan with dear and had fun with all of them. love the beach. but hate it when its filled with blangas! =/ went keppel bay after we're done with dinner. good place to chill. however that day we went, there was no wind at all la! it'll be better if there's tons of wind. =D

friday was kbox with klein. sang till i fell asleep. was too tired! used to sleeping early already. damn i need to improve on my singing. i need to live up to my mom's name. sang lots of songs i never sang before. so most of the time it was analog. sang lots of duets too. love duets best! basically, singing a song alone is boring.

sat was boat quay followed by thai club at shenton way. felt a little tired but still had fun. made 3 new frens. all frens of aaron. they are all nice, funny and can be disgracing at times. =X they anyhow play with ice one la! further more i was in shorts! NO jacket! freaking cold already, and ice were still being thrown at me. (>.<) and i dunno why all aiming me! dammit! felt like taking the whole ice bucket and throw it onto their heads. LOL! wore my 4 inch heels and they made me walk from boat quay to shenton!!! and i got one my heels stuck into one damn long gang hole. so paiseh! one of them was sill cursing me for my heels to be stuck earlier on!! at least they were all kind souls and didnt leave me behind and continued walking. or else i'll get my heels off, run to them and hammer their heads with my heels. =X goodness, i'm getting violent. hohoho!

2008-11-05T15:33:00.002+08:00

blogging at work. oops! i have the crave of staying out late after work. =/ no idea why either. perhaps working life making me more no life. so i need to chill out a little. heh. lasst friday games day was damn cool! 3 sets of wii, 2 sets of driving game (the whole full thing seen at arcade), 1 set of this instrument game thing where it comes with a drum, 2 guitars, and 1 mic to sing. LOL! kept playing house of the dead with amanda. some other wii games too. damn fun! =D there were lots of food and even wine and beer were served! damian even sent a mass email out in advance to warn everyone not to step into the plant after drinking. LOL!

quantum of solance next week sponsored by company as well. got the tickets already. woot! almost half of the cinema is gonna filled with lonza staffs. i'm looking forward to it.

rach's bday celebration on saturday was good too. met long lost ex colleagues. had a good chat too. its cool that after not meeting for so long, there's still so much to talk about. however, only met a hand full of them. there's still a whole lot of people i wanna meet! people like agnes, sean, mon mon, shahilah, etc etc.. OH! went prawning with klein on monday night! we caught a total of 21 prawns! i ate most of them. =X i'm so gonna stop eating seafood for the time being or i'll be visiting the hospital soon for high cholestrol prob.

oh well, au revoir!

2008-10-20T22:23:00.003+08:00

went geyland for dim sum on fri night. woot! then went around those even numbers lorongs to look at.... =D wah! some of dem the boobs damn huge! super extreme! almost going to burst! got one like only wear bra and SUPER short shorts only lor. *faints* dear had to go ECP after that to pass her mom some stuffs. so off we went to carpark F to see "monkey". we went round the carpark thrice just to observe one car. =X

bbq on sat at gavin's place. woot! had my share of fun! love the group pics! =D played a few rounds of mj too. then i had to go. ): i'm a mj addict! shit!

i love my attachment. though its quite boring at times, but the staff there made my stay there enjoying. smiley faces everywhere. i like. christine being such a nice supervisor too. she got us our lanyard! woot! i like the retractable part. thus we need not have to bend our body forward to tap the card anymore! =D

2008-10-18T13:06:00.000+08:00

need a hug.

2008-10-16T20:51:00.005+08:00

attachment so far so good. having meeting with my whole department tmr. kinda looking forward to it as it'll be my first ever company meeting. had dinner with my HOD today at a pub in clementi. christine drove amanda and me, damien drove yongyi and aimi. ate, play pool, drink, chat. bill was on our HOD client. LOL! i love my company. its very interactive. they have lots of recreational events and its all sponsored by the company. we were even invited for their D&D in december. i cant wait! =D

past few days was orientation and reading of SOPs. toured around the plant and mostly is air conditioned. friendly ang mohs and some friendly colleagues. first assignment we had today was arranging of the document files for the engineering department. though we had lots of injuries, but i enjoyed every moment with my 3 counter parts! (:

2008-10-12T01:42:00.002+08:00

i failed napfa!! OMG! passed all stations except 2.4km run. my results are damn extreme. either A or E. but for 2.4km, its an F. ): friday was graduation day. i'm starting to miss cptc. this training brought out a lot of people's true characters which some may really suck. i thank god my group members were all generous. no one was competiting with anyone. we share work load with everybody. we listen to everyone's opinion. and best of all, we work as a team. when i heard about other groups having people who are so competitive, and some just start disliking one another, its pretty sad to realize that these 3 years of lecture mates, some of them are actually like this. =/ got to know some people better as well. and they turned out really nice people. i grew to love shelia's group more, as well as many others.

went lesby's house after cptc to bake cookies. first batch was a little burnt but still edible. 2nd batch was better. and they tasted really good! =D went to meet the rest at cine later on and presented our cookies to faiz and zj as part of their bday gift. (: glad those girls enjoyed the cookies. gave me a sense of satisfaction. met dar, kris and syam at forum next. chatted till time for pubbing. so dar and i left the 2 guys to boat quey to meet von and her clique. hell time man! von went a little high and started making most of us drunk. =/ she added lots of alcohol in my glass and i had to drink all down at one shot. totally gone after that. kept taking pictures with everyone. left the area at 4am. reached home, cooked maggi to eat as dar was hungry. she stayed over at my place. we chatted till we dozed off and i guess its about 5 plus. =D

2008-10-07T11:12:00.003+08:00

went tanning last friday at cafe del mar. fun ever tanning. i didnt get heat stroke this time as i was in the pool most of the time. =D got my heels from go jane and damn i love it so much! although its 4 inch high, i'm gonna get used to it! love spending time with the girls. time just passed so quickly. how i miss secondary sch days. ): met dar, kris and syam in the evening for dinner. then went to the rooftop to chat. there were some awkward moments but at least everything is fine now. LOL!

end of shift training finally. but i think its one of the best out of the whole course. i love the troubleshooting part. its damn challenging although sometimes i got quite frustrated on how to solve it. amanda, shelia, yiyou and me realized that once we're at the DCS, mind is blank. but when we're the fieldman or the 'spectator', ideas just came popping out non stop. OH! day shift was fun too. the only thing i hate is the SUN! damn hot! heng utilities was started up fast. killed the rest of the time with my group by played taboo. Singapore version. =D i want more shift training. especially night shift! went home straight after shift, slept for 2 hours and had to rush to ttsh for my appointment. the doctor dropped some eye drop into my eyes to blur my vision. had a feel of short sighted vision. macham lao hua yan. cool la. =X haha. could not do anything when i reached home so i just sleep all the way till 9pm. =D

got my attachment company. some pharmaceutical company at tuas. mr goh said this company not bad. mosty is A's and dist students. then he added he's my assessor. but that depends on mr liew also. so i pray hard its him. =D if really mr goh i can fang xin le. i'm quite excited for attachment too more on the money side than the working side. =X 8am -5pm every weekday. wow!

2008-10-02T22:29:00.003+08:00

night shift was WOW! in order to kept ourselves awake, we were all pretty high. laughing our asses off and some even played childhood games. (-.-") night time at jurong island is pretty. there's plants which looks like xmas decorations. LOL! too bad cameras are not allowed in the plant. or i'm sure to take pictures. i'm awaiting for the next night shift somehow. and my sleeping time is so scewed now. i think my body system will not be able to identify when is day and night. =/ when i got home this morning, i dropped dead on my bed. slept all the way till sunset and now i'm an owl. didnt go dbl O today. sobz. was feeling damn lazy and i think my damn legs wont be able to stand long. so i'll perhaps head to dbl O next week. =D

the day we were all black bottom white top and only found out towards the end of the day

coffee bean chill out day

2008-10-01T11:15:00.003+08:00

fire fighting on monday was fun! syed even opened the fire monitor for us to play arouond with. LOL! we adjust till the wind blew the water to syed and he was like acting emo all by himself under the "rain". he damn cute la.

got a few bruises and aches from it. boots was still wet the next day and it stained my damn socks! (T.T) when it was honeywell lab, whole group went rushing to toilet to get changed to slippers and brought boots out in the sun to dry. and the lab was damn boring! i slept through the whole video. =X in fact, almost the whole class slept.

sun plaza's coffee bean after training to slack. found out lots of secrets and everything. however, my whole day was so zombie. was feeling SO tired and not much mood to talk cock. so i guess i was pretty quiet. NIGHT SHIFT LATER!!!! Zzz.. how am i gonna stay awake! i cant even stay awake for clubbing already. what more operating a plant. (-.-")

a lot of shits happened these few days. and the first person who came into my mind was you somehow. I miss those days we shared our problems tgt. So many things that I want to update you but I cant.

2008-09-28T13:21:00.003+08:00

went MOS yesterday. woot! free entry cause von won tickets from 98.7FM. this is the first time i club and perspired! haha! double O on thurs!

wahahaha! i love this pic. =X

suan's challenge

2008-09-23T19:45:00.002+08:00

DRAINED!!!!!

i'm mentally drained out by CPTC. sleeping time seems so from precious to me now. shift schedule is out and yes! i'll be away from singapore for 1 day 2 nights next week. i'm going sight seeing at CPTC. its a pity i cant bring my camera into the plant. or i'm sure to take nice night scenery. oh well, i'm happy today! cause i succeeded in cooking jap curry! =D *yummy yummy* its gonna be my lunch tmr. *drools* something to look forward to during practical. and also, my wish came true! my log book!!! the *jiam tao lor di* (as describe by mr allan liew) is mine! xD more to come! shall practise what mr goh taught.

*law of attraction*
jiam tao lor di
jiam tao lor di
jiam tao lor di

2008-09-21T14:37:00.002+08:00

this week practical is soo... well.. i've learnt not much from it. partly is due to the hot weather and nothing is able to enter into the brain of mine. one fun practical would be climbing of the distillation column. everyone was fearful of it as its so super tall! but when we were actually climbing it, it doesnt seem as scary as we thought. my class was the first to climb and i was the 2nd to reach the top! xD got lots of bruises from climbing and it hurts badly. ): i love syed! he's so fun! he can be fierce at times, yet so cute at times too. i think everyone is NYP 1 loves him. this friday went town after cptc training. sat at coffee bean and chatted till late night. heng got last bus home. but poor dar had to follow me home and wait till her bro came and pick her up.

yesterday met dar and mel for ikea trip. woohoO~ bought this mickey mouse hand for the table corners. gonna use it when i get my new table and bed. it looks rather familiar like i've seen them somewhere but i cant rmb. oh well.. cant wait for my new table and bed! than i'll deco my room nice nice, get a table, mayb wii or whatever, and organize a stayover! woot! i wonder when that day will come. =X ate botak jones after that. dar and i shared a plate. HENG sia! was feeling so full halfway through the meal.

i'm stuck at this week's log. got so little to write. i wan an A! shall improve my log entry week by week. gambatte!

2008-09-14T13:41:00.001+08:00

2008-09-14T11:34:00.004+08:00

internet have been down. thus i was unable to blog. CPTC training so far is still okay. luckily of all 3 nyp groups, i feel that my group trainer is the best. he doesnt stress us too much, neither is he too slacken. i have yet to get used in waking up early, but i sure did get used to sleeping early. LOL! it seems 7 hours of sleep is still not enough. i'm climbing the distillation column on tuesday! i'll be dead if i fall halfway climbing. *god bless me*

oh well, mahjiong session at lesby's house on friday after cptc. i think i'm starting to be addicted. more sessions please! headed over to phuture after that to meet yvonne and ch and their clique. cover charge now damn ex la! $25 for ladies $33 for gents! goodness! there was this irritating drunkard who turned around and dance with me on the dance floor. luckily darl pulled me away. he was seriously drunk man. saw him drinking bottles of beers one after another non stop. crazy man! von had a girl dancing with her. wah! damn hectic! that girl kept pushing von to the front non stop till her fren had to pull her away. LOL!

as for yesterday, lesby came over with jeanna and march for just one camera. LOL! and i ended joining them for the lantern festival. jeanna drove my bro's car there as its manual and klein came down after work to drive the car back to my house. this motivates me to start on my pratical soon. =D jeanna and march was damn funny when they saw my 2nd bro.

2nd bro came into room (march sleeping)
jeanna:"the both of u look so alike!"
went down the stairs
march:"so alike la!"
elder bro just nice got home too
march:"the 3 of you look so alike!"

LOL! that's why we're sibling my dear girl~ oh well, it was fun at the festival as we get to play with sparkles! yes! childish! but we were playing with it artisticly!

2008-08-23T22:44:00.006+08:00

August baby!
16th aug, Happy Bday Jun!
19th aug, Happy Bday Yanqi!
20th aug, Happy Bday Jiaz!

Celebrated jun's birthday at her house. BBQ! went early to help with preparations. though some came for awhile only, it was still great time spent together. love the talkings and updates. Chucky is finally opening her mouth more. =X and i cant believe i played the stuffing of mushmellow game in the mouth. i got 9 of them in my mouth. i think i can do better if only i didnt laugh so much. LOL! we seriously need more gatherings other than birthdays.

push push

stuff stuff

trying to open as wide as possible

the 2 finalist who tied!

ice skating on 18th aug with mel and congzheng at kallang. i went in a noob, game out a beginner! LOL! was shopping with mel over there while waiting for cz and we got lots of cheap bargains! woot! *satisfied*

twins! (:

2008-08-15T02:05:00.006+08:00

its meant to be my study break week. but its more like a holiday week for me. LOL! went east coast yesterday for some cycling and picnic session. after that cong zheng came and join us. so i rented a pair of skates. i can blade but i cant stop! and i cant seem to master it YET! i'm so going to dig out the pair of skates my dad bought for me last time. the rest left and nic went to join his dad for fishing at bedok jetty. after skating, both of us joined them. nic's dad's fren, Tom, drove us to bedok mrt. =D tom damn funny la. "hi, i'm jerry!"

matsumoto and toushiro

as for today, last minute meeting with jun for swimming, which also means last minute bonding session with yanping, and last minute meeting with audrey for supper. went geylang for dim sum and fermented toufu next. hohoho! damn smelly la! bth~ i enjoyed my time with them. more swimming sessions at thomson 800!!!

2008-08-12T13:49:00.004+08:00

we played open numbers through the phone! OMG! wanted to decide if we should go for sentosa, east coast or jurong swimming complex. all of us were fine with anything. so open numbers helped us decide. LOL!

anyway, i stayed home on national day catching my taiwan drama 命中注定我爱你. =X on sunday, went sentosa. woot! saw khabir at vivocity too. so the big group of us ended up eating at his work place. it was raining at first. fortunately the rain stopped and we had a cloudy day. LOL! tried playing volleyball as well. think i cannot make it man. i dunno how to aim. =X

2008-08-09T11:07:00.004+08:00

last friday, went pasta de waraku at marina square with my darlings. waited for one whole hour to be sitted down in the restaurant. worst of all, once my twin finished off her last mouth, the stupid manager just took the bowl away immediately and asked us to proceed to the cashier! like.. WTF?! i think he should go attend GEMS.

on saturday, went east coast with congzheng to cycle. some exercise finally. i want more!!! need to get rid of those laziness in me. LOL! took lots of pics too! after that, we headed to Arab st for some shopping. bought my new shades! =D went into one cosplay costume shop as well. woot! might be joining for cosplay at the end of the year. just some experience i think will be fun. however i heard from my 2nd bro its addictive. hmmm..

headed over to lesby place for a stayover. helped her with some posters and we were off to bed at 3 plus 4am. waking up the very next day at 6am. *faints* went to m'sia for our durian trip! yay! i love the durian plantation! thats where most of our pics are taken. after the trip, we were quite exhausted. ): camera batterys were running low too. shopping at jusco was the last stop. i ended up buying nothing as i saw nothing i like in particular. =/

2008-07-30T16:11:00.004+08:00

I Promise Myself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person i meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just enthusiastic about the success of others as i am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater

achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at tall times and give a smile to

every living creature i meet.

To give so much time to improving myself that i have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,

and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself, and to proclaim this fact to the world,

not in loud words, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side,

so long as i am true to the best that is in me.

-Christian D. Larson

2008-07-29T16:54:00.010+08:00

Got this from a mail and found it meaningful..

George Carlin's Views on Aging
Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions.

'How old are you?' 'I'm four and a half!'

You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key. You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead.

'How old are you?' 'I'm gonna be 16!' You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16!

And then the greatest day of your life . . You become 21. Even the words sound like a ceremony . YOU BECOME 21 YESSSS!!! But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're Just a sour-dumpling. What's wrong? What's changed? You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40.
Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away. Before you know it, you REACH 50 and your dreams are gone.But wait!!! You MAKE it to 60. You didn't think you would! So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and MAKE it to 60.You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70!
After that it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT Wednesday! You get into your 80's and every day is a complete cycle; you HIT lunch; you TURN 4:30 ; you REACH bedtime. And it doesn't end there. Into the 90s, you start going backwards; 'I Was JUST 92.'Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. 'I'm 100 and a half!' May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!

HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them.'

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop' And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love , whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER :Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,but by the moments that take our breath away.

'It's not the power you have, it's the power you have to spare '
' If at first you don't succeed, just do it again and again in different ways until you succeed!'

2008-07-27T19:33:00.001+08:00

lots of reports to be done by the coming week. enviromental exam on fri as well. everything due on fri. sobz. busy busy busy! chiong ar!!!

2008-07-26T02:37:00.000+08:00

thanks to congzheng for this wonderful solo pic of me. i so dig his camera! i dig louis' camera more cause its more valueable! =X haha. a fun day for me on friday. was taking pictures during breaks as we had nothing better to do. after school, i left to nee ann poly to help lesby with her project. but i didnt bring my laptop. so i ended up doing nothing. =/

supposed to meet yq, her bf and karen at lau pa sa at 6.30pm. however, we left nee ann at that time. how wonderful! reached there rather late and i was hungry to death! ordered lots of food! stingray, chicken wings, satay, etc.. left for chinatown point next, for swensens ice cream! hohoho! ordered earthquake! =D when we were about to leave, interesting thing happened. one of the waitress there who seems crook to all of us approached us. she asked dewei who was his partner. afterwards when we were outside camwhoring, she came out and ask him if he's a boy or girl. all of us had a loud laugh! i could even hear my laughter echoing back! =/ lesby's uncle drove me home and we had some time to cam whore in the car. heez.

met joel and jeremy after that. headed to changi and had satay. not bad. nice leh! now i'm addicted to it. the chicken meat very tender~ *hungry* joel was still feeling hungry. so off to jalan kayu's prata. damn! now i'm starting to feel hungry!! (>.<)

2008-07-20T14:43:00.005+08:00

wednesday..

out for dinner at arab street. i can't believe i tried sheesha! OMG! i'm going to die soon! i better buy medi shield asap! got my go jane heels from jeanna. whee~! happy happy! its very comfy, however it's 4 inch high which hurts my feet like hell after awhile. got to get used to it.

thursday..

out f or dinner again. at cine this time. some bonding sessions with lesby, karen, yq and jo. LOL! things we do are always the same. after dinner, its always cam whoring sessions. haha!

saturday..

went malaysia with mom, grandma and 2 aunts under my mom's association. some durian trip. yummy~! saw small small durians as well. damn cute la! was so into it once i spotted the small durian husk people was eating from. =D i even saw atiqah at m'sia! what a coincidence la! the world is indeed small. anyway, i didnt buy much as i saw nothing i like. wasted. or not my mom will be paying for it. =X haha!

2008-07-19T02:31:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging. basically lots of things happened. both pleasant and unpleasant. so i went to splurge my hard earn pay from IT fair. went reds for hair treatment + shampoo + conditioner + hair rebuilder + hair serum which cost me $240++. then walked to CK tang intending to use the $50 voucher mom gave me. wanted to get make up remover and base. but these 2 added up till a 100 plus already. =/ so i ended up getting another toner and in total it was $196. became a lancome member on the spot as well as ck tang member. (-.-") oh! bought a top from forever 21 too. felt like spending more but no $$ already. silly me spending so much money but when things just go wrong suddenly for me, my brain wont be functioning properly. i havent been the happy-go-lucky me for months. even keng swee was able to tell. =/ i feel like shutting myself from everyone. isolation. YES! but i know i wont be able to take it. in fact it will make me more emo. i do not know what to do now. i'm lost. where's my guardian angel?

2008-07-01T20:45:00.005+08:00

sat was cousin wee meng's wedding. woke up early for church, then tea ceremony at his house, then dinner in the night. church was the usual. however, its not as grand as the past few church weddings i went. perhaps budget problem. =X i was anticipating on the buffet since the ceremony started. didnt had breakfast at home. thus, i became a hungry ghost. bo bian k~! st marg's are all like this. we live to eat. we dont eat to live. =X "food is life!" yes baby! okok~ so the flower girl and page boy are so cute that i have to take a photo with them. they are my nieces and nephews. haha. felt old beside them. in fact i look damn old in the photo i took with them! gosh! dinner was great! cause i was sitting at the VIP table. woot! it was my virgin experience on VIP table during weddings. =D i want more wedding events!

edwin and me

2nd bro and me

flower girl and page boy! =D i so look like her auntie. -.-"
sabrina and me
mummy and me
daddy's turn~
the newly weds
baby xander and me

met bryan on sunday night for dinner. supposingly to head over to lucky plaza's rabbit for dinner. unfortunately they do not open on sundays. so we headed over to chatterbox for chicken rice. not very good food. =X chicken quite dry. not tender enough. i guess its their sauce that is good. no idea. went to a more quiet area in chatterbox after dinner and sat there to relax, sip tea, enjoy the good view and classics. its been years since we last met. 4 to 5 years i guess. haha! anyway, i missed this way of relaxation. once in a while feels really good. we so dig the embience there that we sat there till closing. LOL! i wanna lead a tai tai lifestyle everyday. =X however, that's impossible. as what bryan said, "to make a living in singapore is easy. But to live well is not."

2008-06-26T15:05:00.003+08:00

went for pin guan unplug thing yesterday at mediacrop with klein. he called in to yes933 and amazingly he got through. and amazingly he sang and won 2 tickets. LOL! i'm not a crazy fan of pin guan. BUT, i do love his voice! its fantastic! his songs too! especially those when guang liang was around too. they really do make a good team. unfortunately they spiltted. ): both are great singers and they sing damn well by themselves too. when i sat there waiting patiently, anxious to see how he looks real life, my heart kept pounding non stop till.. the moment he enters the room.. *faints* that's not it! when he started strumming on his guitar and sang, WOW! the atmosphere became different. it was a total different thing from listening to those mp3! i swear! i sat there quietly, sinking into his voice and melody and man, i so do not want to leave this place! i enjoyed my time there. OH! and jia fa, one of the dj was hosting. he's a really good host. i just cant imagine how people are able to speak such fluent chinese! *admirers* he's cute when he walks up to the drums and tried to hold them down to prevent it from ruining the song. i was afraid he might be careless at some point of time and made a huge bang instead. haha. fortunately he didnt. overall, it was an awesome experience. love pin guan, love the dj, love my day and yes, love everyone! (:

2008-06-22T20:41:00.002+08:00

seriously bad term break i have. not that the activities i had is boring or bad. BUT!! i've visited the doctor like shit for this 2 weeks! fell sick during IT fair, sprained my ankle on the last day of IT fair. and worst of all, a few days later, i sprained my DAMN WAIST! not exactly waist also. its connected from my neck to my ribs which gives me a little difficulty in breathing at times. i cant even turn my body to the right! how bad can my term break be? i dont even have mood to study for my exams. i'm so screwed. emotions are getting my way too. sob sobz.

2008-06-11T22:01:00.003+08:00

went water ski today! woot! damn fun! all thanks to mr goh for organizing this wonderful event. though not many turned up, we still did had our fun. i think except yvonne where she got a deep cut on her nose during the second round. gosh! it kept bleeding non stop la! i managed to almost complete one round. the last station was rather tough to pass. at least there's a sense of satisfaction passing most of the stations. (: i enjoyed my day! night was dinner with jun opposite my house prata. talked about the past and all our stupid acts. haha. we knew each other since primary school. certain things we forgot, certain things we remembered. memories.